Picasso once said, "All children are born artists. The problem is to remain artist as we grow up."

Passion

Every Friday, seminarians attend the afternoon mass and some of them are selected readers for the Reading. I noticed that the representative for the second reading seems to be a bit nervous, it must be because of the pressure since his colleagues are there to watch and actually listen and maybe judge him.

Then I realized, the reason why I can perform on a crowd of people because I don't pressure myself onto whoever watches over my performance, I'm in love with what I'm doing that I just want to perform it on the best way that I could. I get too attached with what I do as if it is a very important thing, and maybe because I know I can perform it well.

But of course that is not always the case. I had my own great performances (which only a few witnessed) and a lot of fail moments. During those fail moments, pressure and insecurities entered my mind at the wrong time that is why they happened.

I am talking about stage performances at the previous paragraphs, but we can also apply these to our studies, our artworks, and everything we're supposed to do. We should just be passionate, it seems like  one's great performance is out of loving what he does and not be pressured (or not care at all) by other people.

Why are people dissatisfied with the ending of Durarara! ? I liked its ending. At least it ended without any cliffhang and IT'S A HAPPY ENDING!! Don't you guys like happy ending?

SPOILER ALERT!! Please do not dare read if you don't want to be spoiled at all.

I think we all wanted to see what Izaya wanted to happen, and see him as a great antagonist and what will happen to Selty and her head if reunited, because that'll be cool. What would Selty's head look like if awake?

But really, Izaya could've actually shot either Mikado or Kida to see how Anri would react, but I think Anri will immediately slice him if he does that and then such "war" with Anri wouldn't actually help with his plans. In the end, he did not succeed in ruining the whole Ikebukuro so no "great war which only he can fight" happened. In the end, all of the nice people helped with the mess.

But yeah, nothing happened much to the "antagonists". So, meh.
We wished they developed more: Shinra Kishitani's dad, Yagiri sis, Izaya, (I actually wanted to see him suffer and cry psychotically there was an opportunity for that to happen after Simon talked to him but he was just too stubborn for that) and some other characters (which are side characters) like Simon, Shinra, and Shizuo's brother. I also want to conclude that Saki is Izaya's sister (because I can see some resemblance in their eyes and hair) but he doesn't really care so much about her.

This anime is almost like how it is in real life, one will not see everyone develop because you won't be able to focus yourself on everyone, only to the main people in your life. So yeah, I liked how my favorite characters ended up. Okay, maybe almost everyone. At least they now continue having nice lives, with no one feeling miserable except Horoda and gang =))

Main unique points of mine:

I am a menopausal baby. My mother was about to turn 50 when she gave birth to me. Her birthday is in December, while I was born in May.
I am left-handed. But due to the usual design of everything accommodating the right-handed people, I got used with right-handed designs, except ring bind notebooks :( So I can say that I'm quite ambidextrous not in writing though, but in many other ways.


to be continued

I am religious, but not in the normal sense.

^(rephrased from Stephen Hawking's religious views)

I believe in one universal God, which I believe is the powerful deity everyone praises, even as Muslim, or the tribal groups, or even the polytheistic religious groups which revere a god per 'this and that'.

Afterlife is hard for me to believe. I consider all the doctrines in the Holy Gospel as metaphors rather than literal. The "end" is not World's end, but each of our deaths. "Heaven" is our lovely Earth, and this is the only life we have so we should change our twisted acts before our "end", because you are already living in "hell" if you don't change for the better.

For me it doesn't matter if you pray all the time or go to church (I'm a usual mass-goer though, lately) if you don't practice moral values. You can test your moralities when encountered with situation regarding: cheating, gossip/badmouthing others, seeing another person's valuable, initiative to help, etc --Well, you know all these.

One can say that God is our conscience, but I'd rather say that God is in my conscience, and he watches over me. If he watches over me, then he knows what I'm doing and what I'm thinking.

I think this kind of religious view is out of my deep love for this Earth, and all of God's creation, and my hatred from those who dare to destroy its beauty for greed.

There were the days when I hated Christian religion because of the past Crusades and all the invasions "in the name of God" but actually, they had a greedy ambition. The number one rule in the Ten Commandments is "Do not put God's name in vain" and yet, wars happened out of religion. Those invasions led to the "Industrial Revolution", which now destroyed Earth but at the same time, is helping humanity.

Plus, one day, while doing some Catholic practices, a thought just struck me: "Something seems off." I noticed how "too much" we praise Jesus when his motive and teachings are for believing and praising our Father. He wants to lead us to God but somehow Christian practices mainly focus on Jesus and I can't help but notice: "How about God?" Don't start with the matter that God and Jesus are the same. They are, but at the same time they're not.

But now I go to church as usual as I can, (more than once a week), to communicate with God with the 'greatest version of prayer' and translate all the teachings in my everyday life and moral values. I choose to become moral and ethical, and a relationship with God is the nicest thing I have.