I experienced a lot within these two months. It's still sad that there's something sacrificed for all these. T'was a great journey. Yaay 18
A week before this term started, it was Holy week. I didn't participate at all and my faith was clouded with doubt. I cannot clearly see why I should praise something that seems so unreal but my heart seems clouded also that I was never at peace during those weeks. I still tried to go to church to enlighten myself and gradually, my faith has returned. Ever since then, my heart remained at peace and I'm always happy. It's like God always hugs my heart, which is so delightful :D I bought a cheap and cool wooden bracelet with a cross on it to make me feel like God is always with me, and to not let me feel unsure ever again.
Then I turned 18. It was three weeks ago and I still feel like I'm still celebrating it now. I'm happy that I have the chance to be able to get a driver's license even though I still don't know how to drive :)) A lot of things happened that currently I cannot list them all but to sum it up, it was such a great experience and my heart is contented.
All I can mention now is that:
It is just such a downfall that I'm not doing well with a major subject. I am really struggling, I wanna save that subject but it might be futile and it's too late. But as I said at the beginning, I might fail now, but that failure is nothing compared to all that happened these 11 weeks.
Then I turned 18. It was three weeks ago and I still feel like I'm still celebrating it now. I'm happy that I have the chance to be able to get a driver's license even though I still don't know how to drive :)) A lot of things happened that currently I cannot list them all but to sum it up, it was such a great experience and my heart is contented.
All I can mention now is that:
- I gained a bunch of "strangers who clicked together"
- became closer to my niece Melissa who plays toys while we video chat
- made more memories with my high school "family",
- had more bonding time with my best friend,
- mysteriously became nicer to my sister,
- my mom is so busy,
- had moments with the people of Adams+ Manong mapuan ice cream+ Ate Tweeny (Mothers' day)
- unexpectedly seeing my crush after a long time and it happened to be his birthday that day and luckily I remembered the date!
- unfriended a friend because I've had enough and I am just so concerned for her that I gave up on her
- became closer to my foreign friend whom I spend my nights to keep me awake while doing schoolwork
- met in person a friend I've known for 5 years and gained new friends during the event,
- becoming a godmother (Tita Ninang) of my youngest niece Rozelle Ann (whose name is somehow similar to mine) We sound like sisters haha
- first time being in Enchanted Kingdom yet did not get scared at rides, and unexpectedly danced as a birthday celebrant
- first time watching a movie in the cinema, with my college friends
- and most especially, God lives in my heart.
It is just such a downfall that I'm not doing well with a major subject. I am really struggling, I wanna save that subject but it might be futile and it's too late. But as I said at the beginning, I might fail now, but that failure is nothing compared to all that happened these 11 weeks.
