Because of my extreme fondness with the world, I'm interested with different cultures and beliefs. We are all humans in my perception, only coated with our own personal beliefs. So racism and discrimination is terribly innapropriate and are acts of rudeness.

Just please, be rational and open-minded.

Picasso once said, "All children are born artists. The problem is to remain artist as we grow up."

Passion

Every Friday, seminarians attend the afternoon mass and some of them are selected readers for the Reading. I noticed that the representative for the second reading seems to be a bit nervous, it must be because of the pressure since his colleagues are there to watch and actually listen and maybe judge him.

Then I realized, the reason why I can perform on a crowd of people because I don't pressure myself onto whoever watches over my performance, I'm in love with what I'm doing that I just want to perform it on the best way that I could. I get too attached with what I do as if it is a very important thing, and maybe because I know I can perform it well.

But of course that is not always the case. I had my own great performances (which only a few witnessed) and a lot of fail moments. During those fail moments, pressure and insecurities entered my mind at the wrong time that is why they happened.

I am talking about stage performances at the previous paragraphs, but we can also apply these to our studies, our artworks, and everything we're supposed to do. We should just be passionate, it seems like  one's great performance is out of loving what he does and not be pressured (or not care at all) by other people.

Why are people dissatisfied with the ending of Durarara! ? I liked its ending. At least it ended without any cliffhang and IT'S A HAPPY ENDING!! Don't you guys like happy ending?

SPOILER ALERT!! Please do not dare read if you don't want to be spoiled at all.

I think we all wanted to see what Izaya wanted to happen, and see him as a great antagonist and what will happen to Selty and her head if reunited, because that'll be cool. What would Selty's head look like if awake?

But really, Izaya could've actually shot either Mikado or Kida to see how Anri would react, but I think Anri will immediately slice him if he does that and then such "war" with Anri wouldn't actually help with his plans. In the end, he did not succeed in ruining the whole Ikebukuro so no "great war which only he can fight" happened. In the end, all of the nice people helped with the mess.

But yeah, nothing happened much to the "antagonists". So, meh.
We wished they developed more: Shinra Kishitani's dad, Yagiri sis, Izaya, (I actually wanted to see him suffer and cry psychotically there was an opportunity for that to happen after Simon talked to him but he was just too stubborn for that) and some other characters (which are side characters) like Simon, Shinra, and Shizuo's brother. I also want to conclude that Saki is Izaya's sister (because I can see some resemblance in their eyes and hair) but he doesn't really care so much about her.

This anime is almost like how it is in real life, one will not see everyone develop because you won't be able to focus yourself on everyone, only to the main people in your life. So yeah, I liked how my favorite characters ended up. Okay, maybe almost everyone. At least they now continue having nice lives, with no one feeling miserable except Horoda and gang =))

Main unique points of mine:

I am a menopausal baby. My mother was about to turn 50 when she gave birth to me. Her birthday is in December, while I was born in May.
I am left-handed. But due to the usual design of everything accommodating the right-handed people, I got used with right-handed designs, except ring bind notebooks :( So I can say that I'm quite ambidextrous not in writing though, but in many other ways.


to be continued

I am religious, but not in the normal sense.

^(rephrased from Stephen Hawking's religious views)

I believe in one universal God, which I believe is the powerful deity everyone praises, even as Muslim, or the tribal groups, or even the polytheistic religious groups which revere a god per 'this and that'.

Afterlife is hard for me to believe. I consider all the doctrines in the Holy Gospel as metaphors rather than literal. The "end" is not World's end, but each of our deaths. "Heaven" is our lovely Earth, and this is the only life we have so we should change our twisted acts before our "end", because you are already living in "hell" if you don't change for the better.

For me it doesn't matter if you pray all the time or go to church (I'm a usual mass-goer though, lately) if you don't practice moral values. You can test your moralities when encountered with situation regarding: cheating, gossip/badmouthing others, seeing another person's valuable, initiative to help, etc --Well, you know all these.

One can say that God is our conscience, but I'd rather say that God is in my conscience, and he watches over me. If he watches over me, then he knows what I'm doing and what I'm thinking.

I think this kind of religious view is out of my deep love for this Earth, and all of God's creation, and my hatred from those who dare to destroy its beauty for greed.

There were the days when I hated Christian religion because of the past Crusades and all the invasions "in the name of God" but actually, they had a greedy ambition. The number one rule in the Ten Commandments is "Do not put God's name in vain" and yet, wars happened out of religion. Those invasions led to the "Industrial Revolution", which now destroyed Earth but at the same time, is helping humanity.

Plus, one day, while doing some Catholic practices, a thought just struck me: "Something seems off." I noticed how "too much" we praise Jesus when his motive and teachings are for believing and praising our Father. He wants to lead us to God but somehow Christian practices mainly focus on Jesus and I can't help but notice: "How about God?" Don't start with the matter that God and Jesus are the same. They are, but at the same time they're not.

But now I go to church as usual as I can, (more than once a week), to communicate with God with the 'greatest version of prayer' and translate all the teachings in my everyday life and moral values. I choose to become moral and ethical, and a relationship with God is the nicest thing I have.

I got hugged, lifted up, and KISSED by Ate Sheila of Adams! (Intramuros' school supplies/mini grocery store)

As I always do when I enter the store, I greet all of them, especially my favorite Ate Sheila. She seemed pretty occupied when she passed by me but I still greeted her, but croo croo, I was unnoticed. Ate Carmela said something in their dialect, I don't know what that is, then after a few seconds while I was about to buy the stuffs I need, I suddenly got hugged from my left side, lifted up and got kissed on the cheek! I only realized it was Ate Sheila when she lifted me x)

She explained that Ate Carmela told her in their local dialect that I greeted her but she did not notice me.

Her gesture really surprised me for no one has ever done that to me before :">

SURPRISINGLY, THIS IS MY 100TH POST!! What a lovely 100th post this is, hihi

I LOVE YOU ATE SHEILA!!

Though, I kind of tried to withdraw from the hug because that's my immediate response when I get hugged. I'm just not used with being hugged. My guy friend who likes hugging me whenever we meet gets the same response, and sometimes I even 'punch' him and don't hug back. I'm just not used to it, but that doesn't mean I hate their gestures. I totally appreciate it. Let's just say it's the Tsundere way.

I CANNOT BELIEVE SHE CAN CARRY ME or lift me up. I'm taller than her. But HIHI, that must mean I'm not heavy :">

I just finished reading The Fountainhead!! XD

Yeah, after more than a year of reading xD When I was still at Theory of Architecture 1 class, I was only able to read like two-thirds of it, or maybe just half. Then I still read it rarely, but quite briefly. It was only three weeks ago when I felt nostalgia on current students of TOA1 making their own book reports. I then decided to finish reading the book, where I'm already at the last part.

It was the power outage yesterday that motivated me to actually & literally finish reading, probably because I have nothing else to do during the day. It was worth it ^_^ It was this morning (5am) when I woke up and read the part of Howard Roark stating his lengthy sentiment in the court, up to the ending and a part of the extra which describes Ayn Rand's perception of the visual character of the protagonist.

I'm just not in the mood to blog about the story lately, but I have realized key things: in creating, one must love his creation and thus not let any distraction get in the way. I should truly prioritize my studies and works if I truly care about them and myself. I never want to be considered a second-hander like everyone else. I'm proud to be a person who doesn't want to go with the flow but I can definitely say that I submit myself to the people I care about, which is somehow toxic unless it won't ruin me and it is my firm and sound decision.

Wooh! Ayn Rand, thank you for your book. Thank you Sir Ted for obliging us to read it and even make us create a book report for it. I wouldn't think I would force myself to read half of the book for a few limited days if it weren't for the forced & graded requirement for completion of that course.

I just can't defend myself.

Apparently, there have been a number of people who bash me behind my back. LOL a month has passed since that issue started! I cannot believe some people make an effort to talk about another person behind his back and yet he doesn't even give a damn! Such a pathetic act.

I won't say anything more even if I wanted to because as I will type those things and let negativity enter my thoughts and my heart, I'll just feel bad and I might have palpitations again. I don't want any health issues so thank you for the efforts of bashing me behind my back. It's pretty amusing. Bless your souls, guys.

Thank you to those people who suddenly message me to ask me about that issue. I HAD NO IDEA and I only knew about those backstabbings from those guys! LOL, now we see the real colors of the people we pass by, and those who truly cares even if they rarely interact with you. I'm going to treasure these people rather than care about those small-minded backstabbers :)) God will take care of them. Not just for me, but because they haven't been good children of His.

I really love fireworks

:') So high quality!!
I was just unsatisfied that the actual fireworks sounds are omitted from the video. I like the natural sounds of fireworks because they sound like destruction and yet they bring beautiful, magnificent things :D WAAAAAH I REALLY LOVE FIREWORKS!!

"The contradiction of his ideals and his professions uttered to destroy him in the end, and realizing that was too late."

I created those words, not for me, but to analyze a character from a story. While I was typing that, it was like my every single type on the keyboard kept pressing an arrow deeper and deeper into me, making me fear that I might end up like that, if I lose my way. I don't think I would.

If I work on my profession just like how others do it, that line on the header really will happen to me, but if I stick on my "agenda" of what I'm going to do and actually achieve them, I will be on the right track.

So I just have to be cautious and not lose my way. I'll definitely live through my ideals and make things better for this world, even if I cannot make this world better.

"Every form of happiness is private. Our greatest moments are personal, self-motivated, not to be touched. The things which are sacred or precious to us are the things we withdraw from promiscuous sharing." - Howard Roark, The Fountainhead

Hello to those users who view my blog from "webchat.freenode.net". I never knew of that site before, but really, thank you for viewing my blog :)

I just found out that I'm 6 blogs near to my 100th post! I wonder what my 100th post will be :)

Don't stress yourself out of the things you can't control or change.

Probably the proper translation of "Hakuna Matata"

Right after my post about my heart-wrenching desire, I found this picture below:

Easy to say, but what if whatever it is you want can't be obtained so easily? In this harsh reality, I NEED MONEY. Not everyone is too lucky to win the lottery, but dang, I wish I would.
(I believe I'm always lucky, but not with lottery. My mom and I tried, we could've won a lot of times, but under some circumstances, mostly my childish fault,we weren't able to bet our supposedly winning tickets to the lottery outlet.)

What if what I have always wanted is to be in Europe? -_- I can't go there right now. I'll have to wait for a few more years (hopefully less than 5!) before being able to do so.

Suddenly, I want to go to Alabang. Internet, blog, and just sit in the middle of the 'underpass/walkway' going to Festival Mall, while looking at the greeny river before the Entrada building (if I remember correctly) and just feel the vibe of being IN THERE.

But that's not allowed to do, and I will be pretty much disturbed by the people walking around me. If I can just be alone in there, with nobody else passing by, that'd be great.

Plus, I'm so annoyed that I'm not where I want to be at the very exact moment. I believe I'm not the only one who feels this way, but my heart and eagerness to be there is too strong that my chest tightens and I cannot breathe! All I want to do in my life is to travel..AROUND THE WORLD. Glorify the wonders of nature, and the exceptional works of men (particularly in architecture). It's so annoying that I first need to work like a slave in order to be rich before being able to grasp such an already-heart-wrenching-desire. I desire it the most but I'm aware I can't do accomplish it any sooner.

Bliss from Simple things

I enjoy walking around Intramuros by myself, loving the beautiful designs and daydreaming. My heart is filled with joy that I even smile at strangers whom I believe are nice people and they smiled back at me! It felt nice that I was like a "walking angel" that lifts up other people's mood even if they don't know me :))

Dream Home

A woman should have a mixture of: a wisdom of the mother + integrity of a virgin + attractiveness of slut + independence of a bitch.

Quote from the movie Syrup. It says that “this leaves men confused and unable to pigeonhole you. What they are forced to do instead is… take you seriously.”

GO WOMAN POWER!!

It's not just a dream! But definitely a DREAM COME TRUE! ♥ ♥ FIREWORKS!!!

I really wanted to see fireworks display again, and earlier this day, while helping my roommate shoot her video project at the Intramuros walls, we saw firecrackers being set up meters away from us. I thought they were going to launch them by 7-8pm, and I thought I missed it already because Lorinell and I are inside SM Manila that time.

But I was wrong! Just minutes before I typed this blog post, (9:30pm! June 22, 2014) my roommates and I was surprised to hear firecrackers by our window! I immediately opened the curtain and got so excited like a kid =)) The fireworks display lasted for about 4-5 minutes, but the best parts of it was blocked by the building of MIT >.< But still, we loved the fireworks display ♥ ♥ ♥ My heart is filled with joy ^_^

This is what I love in my room! I get surprise fireworks display almost everyday! But most of the time, the fireworks can't be seen by our window, so I get sad to only hear the firecrackers but cannot even see the majestic display.

Last term break, almost everyone already went home to start their vacation, so there are only few people living in Intramuros by then, and I'm one of them. I'm already alone in our dorm room at a Saturday/Sunday midnight, then suddenly at 1am a fireworks display was launched in our school! It was the exact fireworks display that we had on our foundation week (which woke me up at 7pm that day).. To see that there's an unexpected majestic fireworks show is so amazing, it felt like it's meant for me ♥♥

This is why I get excited to see fireworks as if I'm a little kid ♥
I wasn't like this in the past.

Blessed by the Eucharist, blessed by God ♥

I was having a troubled mind and heart during the mass, but when I took the Holy Communion and prayed wholeheartedly, I suddenly became at peace. I walked the streets of Intramuros with joy in my heart, I even tried to go inside the newly-renovated Manila Cathedral but there's an ongoing mass so I didn't enter. I decided to attend mass there some other time.

As I was on my way to Chow King, I smiled at a security guard at the building in front of it. Then, the security guard at Chow King also has a smiling face so I greeted him with a smile, too. Then all of the staff were nice and are all smiling at me. Upon ordering, I realized I have no money with me so I just went out to a nearby atm and when I came back, a staff and the guard opened the doors for me, making me feel like a V.I.P.! :))

I ate my favorite sweet and sour fish together with a pineapple juice, then Alan came to get his photocopy from me. I stayed for a while, got a call from my mom and left Chow King. While about to leave, the security guard opened the door for me saying "Thank You" and I smiled did some polite gesture to him. I heard him say "Such a nice smile!" "Ay, ang ganda naman ng ngiti!" , which made me happier :D So then I walked back to dorm happily while having Manila Cathedral's bell as a background sound :)

Everything is scary when you suddenly wake up from a terrifying dream within the "devil's hour"

Just recently woke up from a "nightmare"(?) Well, a nervous-packed dream to be exact (3:53am)

There were a lot of scenes in this dream of mine, but I only remember 2, first is the best one and last is the worst and what made me wake up.

The first one is about fireworks. We were inside our "dorm" but the setting is more house-like, far from what my dorm looks like. "Finally", we were able to see the beautiful view of UP Diliman (which is actually far from our place HOHO so impossible) and they are celebrating their foundation day. To celebrate it, they had fireworks display which are grand and beautiful - it was a counter-clockwise sequence of fireworks (It started in the south, the next round at southeast, then up to northwest) so it was 4 rounds of consecutive grand fireworks display. It's theme is HUNGER GAMES! Literally, there's a firework there in every round which is like an explosion of arrows, and it was like I was feeling the 'residue' or ashes of the arrows in my dreams.

The next is I went to UP Diliman then I approached Psychology professors while they are having a meeting, I forgot why but I had something to inquire, and I wanted a book be explained by the professor I want to talk to. Turns out, the book was somehow cartoony for a psychology book. Then it was like I got too absorbed by the book, I "got inside of it". Well, there's no scene about transporting to the book, the scene just changed into me wearing Renaissance/Medieval pauper clothes, and I was alone in the "house", and the house have four pairs of a tinted window with a hooked screw on it and a door.

I was aware it was a simulation about psychology, and I'm supposed to answer one of the doors, whichever "voice" do I feel trustworthy to open, because there might be a chance that it's a killer knocking on the floor, pretending to be a nice person. Before I started locking the doors, I noticed that a huge bear is approaching the first door. It is a beast that can kill me. Next is a (well at first, SINGULAR) a "nice lady" knocking on the door. I cannot see their faces because the window is tinted and the door is pure wood. The other is "my grandma", then I forgot if there is actually another door left (so it was 3 or 4 doors).

So there, let's say there are only 3 pairs of doors and windows. It's supposed to be a test which you live in a house of ONE PAIR OF ENTRANCE (1 window+1 door) then one day you are alone and you get to have these scenarios, it's not supposed to be at THE SAME TIME, that is why the 3 pairs of doors look the same. But, yep, what I experienced is that three people are knocking from 3 different doors all at the same time.

So I knew all along that the first one is a bear. I locked the door and put a lot of things to secure the door because the bear can break in with its strength. The next one sounds like a nice lady; I was on the verge of opening the door for her but I'm thinking maybe she's just pretending to be nice. The last one is "my grandmother", well, she sounds like one. Grandma sounds authoritative and she's angry that I wasn't opening the door.

I knew all along that it was only a simulation, that is why I'm more suspicious with people. "What if" it's the nice lady? "What if" it's grandma who wanted to kill me? Plus, she sounds mad. So I secured all the doors while they are still knocking and pleading for me to open the door (except the bear, he can't speak, all he do is knock beastly). The nice lady turned out to have another woman with her, with a higher pitched voice which I find creepy, and made me secure the door even more.

Their pleadings got worse and worse, the nice lady and the person with her sounded lunatic already and grandma's getting angry that all their noise started getting into my head like crazy and they were all trying to break in. I was just looking at the three doors then the lady tried to look through the window. She looked scary since she looked like she's wearing gothic clothes by the window because of the window's black tint. Apparently she only appeared like a shadow and I only looked at her below her face, so I only saw the creepy dress.

Everything's sounding crazy already, they are trying to break in, I'm scared that the doors will open even if it was tightly secured. Then I noticed them from the window. They held a screwdriver. I FORGOT TO SECURE THE WINDOW! There's only this hooked screw securing it then they can open the window already (they didn't thought of breaking the glass). Nervous rushed all over me as I can feel them breaking in and killing me. I was afraid to get killed. "I'm done." "I'll die." And finally I woke up from all the stress from this dream.

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I noticed reasons why I had those details in my dream. I made a blog post yesterday about missing the fireworks show last night, so I had a dream of multiple fireworks display as if it was real and I was able to feel the dusts.

Then the psychology thing and UP Diliman. The UP Diliman was just mentioned by a friend named Elisha at our English class. Then, psychology, maybe because I made a new friend from that course and she made me take a psychology test and we'll meet again for a drawing test on Monday.

Then the huge brown grizzly bear must be because of Lorinell mentioning "bear" during dinner.

It just amazed me that this dream made me feel as if it was real. I got really nervous and scared. So I realized I was scared of getting killed. Then I also received a moral lesson: LOCK ALL FENESTRATIONS, DO NOT STUPIDLY FOCUS ON THE DOOR BECAUSE BAD PEOPLE BREAK IN WINDOWS.

Had a fun night with my college best friend, Lorinell :)

During the whole day, I was actually feeling down and I just want to curl up singing the phrase "I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here 'coz I remember it all, all, all..too well"

But then when the class ended and it's just me and Lorinell on the way to dinner, we had a great and fun girl chat, during then I did not even feel sad anymore. After dinner, I accompanied her to the bakery and we were singing on the way there. Yep, I have the courage to sing out loud at the silent road of Intramuros because she's with me :)) Then I noticed blinking lights reflected at the walls of our school, THERE'S FIREWORKS! I was like a kid being too excited to find a view where I can see them. I already gave up coz the buildings block the sky, but when we reached the bakery, there are people by Manila Bulletin who are looking at the fireworks display!

But the moment I ran to reach that road, the fireworks display finally ended :( 
I still had fun though, most especially when my friend said that she wants to spend the night with me and talk about lots of stuff. Man, I really want to live in the same apartment with her >.< ♥ 

I might fail now, but I'll make it up the next time. I might fail now, but that failure is nothing compared to all that happened this term :D

I experienced a lot within these two months. It's still sad that there's something sacrificed for all these. T'was a great journey. Yaay 18

A week before this term started, it was Holy week. I didn't participate at all and my faith was clouded with doubt. I cannot clearly see why I should praise something that seems so unreal but my heart seems clouded also that I was never at peace during those weeks. I still tried to go to church to enlighten myself and gradually, my faith has returned. Ever since then, my heart remained at peace and I'm always happy. It's like God always hugs my heart, which is so delightful :D I bought a cheap and cool wooden bracelet with a cross on it to make me feel like God is always with me, and to not let me feel unsure ever again.

Then I turned 18. It was three weeks ago and I still feel like I'm still celebrating it now. I'm happy that I have the chance to be able to get a driver's license even though I still don't know how to drive :)) A lot of things happened that currently I cannot list them all but to sum it up, it was such a great experience and my heart is contented.

All I can mention now is that:

• I gained a bunch of "strangers who clicked together"
• became closer to my niece Melissa who plays toys while we video chat
• made more memories with my high school "family", 
• had more bonding time with my best friend, 
• mysteriously became nicer to my sister, 
• my mom is so busy,
• had moments with the people of Adams+ Manong mapuan ice cream+ Ate Tweeny (Mothers' day)
• unexpectedly seeing my crush after a long time and it happened to be his birthday that day and luckily I remembered the date!
• unfriended a friend because I've had enough and I am just so concerned for her that I gave up on her
• became closer to my foreign friend whom I spend my nights to keep me awake while doing schoolwork
• met in person a friend I've known for 5 years and gained new friends during the event, 
• becoming a godmother (Tita Ninang) of my youngest niece Rozelle Ann (whose name is somehow similar to mine) We sound like sisters haha
• first time being in Enchanted Kingdom yet did not get scared at rides, and unexpectedly danced as a birthday celebrant
• first time watching a movie in the cinema, with my college friends
• and most especially, God lives in my heart.

It is just such a downfall that I'm not doing well with a major subject. I am really struggling, I wanna save that subject but it might be futile and it's too late. But as I said at the beginning,  I might fail now, but that failure is nothing compared to all that happened these 11 weeks.

Everything good is on the next page of God's plan. All we need to do is wait and have patience. It'll be worth it :D

Had another bunch of "Strangers who clicked together" at a debut party of a friend I have met after 5 years of knowing each other

It was God's will to give us a person who connected the two of us personally. My AR batchmate, and probably the best student of our batch, Justin James, helped me go to Yuuki-chan's party last night.

We expected going there late since his class ended at 6, while I have a midterms plate from 4:30-7:30. I did my best to finish it quickly because he's waiting for me. I did finish by 7pm but my professor didn't allow me to pass it yet. What made us more late is that since I finished early, I will collect all the plates, so I will have to wait for all of them and arrange the plates alphabetically. It's like he's doing it on purpose.

We rode the bus with my close friend Ynarae, and stopped by Justin's house first. It was quite a walk so I was looking around the houses we pass by, until there was this house that made me stop because it looks very "architecture" and to my surprise, Justin walked towards it. Just WHOA =))
His family is very nice, and his father drove us to Yuuki-chan's house.

During the party, we needed to sit by the high school classmates. Several find me familiar and knew me as someone from "anime-addicts". Jean Audrie and several of her friends like the one named "Jea" (which sounds really rhymey with my nickname) are with me the rest of the party. We met this guy named "Lenard Kevin" whom I noticed being alone but I was just shy to start a conversation with him, luckily I found him talking to Jean and everyone else so, there :))

I was really excited to meet Yuuki face to face but I did my best to hide in the audience during the event 'coz I want her to notice me when I'm already near her :D It took a while before I was able to get near her because everyone wants to take a picture of her :) Then Kevin, Jea, Marga, Jean, Justin and I were together until the visitors go home and it's only Kevin and I left 'coz we can't go back to Manila at a very late time.

We spent the after-party with the Red Cross friends of Yuuki-chan and I was able to borrow Yuuki's clothes for the night. Her mom and dad were also with us for a while and socialized. That was so cool. Her Red Cross friends are so funny and I was really entertained with the gays who made the night a minor comedy bar/ beauty pageant/ theater/ cheering venue =)) Too bad I stayed up all night the night before so I really needed to sleep earlier than them. Kevin wanted me to sing but I wasn't able to (now I regret it haha) It's just that I feel so pressured whenever I'm asked to do such thing, so I wasn't able to think of a good song to sing that night.

It was 7am in the morning when they woke up and almost everyone are already in the dining area. The gays talk about funny things during their childhood days and it was HILARIOUS XDDD There was a time when I was drinking water then I can't stop laughing but I'm trying not to swallow and choke with the water in my mouth; everyone else was laughing at me xDD

So after that breakfast, we finally ended our stay at Yuuki-chan's house. Her mom said she'll miss us, aww <3 I wanna go back because I'll have my Gothic Lolita dress made in their shop; Yuuki's outfit last night was amazing :D And so we walked for a bit, and rode a tricycle to reach the highway (we needed 3 or 4 tricycles to fit us all) They were all so nice and said they would add me on facebook :) They were also surprised to know that it's my first time meeting Yuuki in person because it seemed like we were very close <3 I also just figured out that it was Ate Ann who was beside me in the bed while sleeping. She's studying Fine Arts. I paid for Kevin's ride in the tricycle and he said he'll just pay our jeepney ride.

In the jeepney, when Ann and the other RCY member left, we said "Let's just talk in facebook!" then the jeepney driver joined in and said "Fb fb na lang"! That was so funny :)) Then, I decided that I'll ride the SM Fairview bus so that I can join Kevin in the ride, since it's so sad to ride the bus alone after a nice event. The conductor said the bus won't stop at where I want to drop off so I parted ways with Kevin.

I sat comfortably in the Lawton bus while feeling contented with the nice experience I had when I noticed Kevin AT THE AISLE OF THE BUS, WALKING TOWARDS ME! I instantly asked with confusion, "Why are you here?" Then he just sat beside me and said "I'll just take the MRT, or LRT. I forgot. Nevermind haha" *not exactly the words he said* I was flattered by that, since it was really surprising. And lucky for him that my bus wasn't leaving before he arrived! Since he wasn't sure of where he'll drop off, I needed my Manila friends to help us know what MRT/LRT line is Trinoma. It turned out that he will have to leave at the first stop of the bus. He was able to get my number before we noticed that we're already at the first bus stop. The trip was so quick, and very convenient. Of course I wanted it to should've lasted longer.

I walked back to Intramuros because it is such a nice day to contemplate and cherish all the good stuff that just happened. The moment I walked within the walls, I realized that I'm just right in time to attend the Holy Mass so I did to thank God for every blessings I received. Right after the mass, I called my mom, then my best friend Lorinell to eat lunch with me and chitchat about the event :D

I really wish I can meet them again :) But I will once again do my best to come back.

My first ever "F.O." letter.

A little clarification for everyone: I did not post this online to brag about it, I only wanted no rumors nor false accusations from anyone so I believed it's better for you guys to read the reason why I wrote something like this.

Is there something wrong with respecting other people's property?

I did not make the receiver my enemy, I only ended my friendship with that person so all the secrets that person shared to me will never be exploited. I'm not a rotten immature person to do that just because I ended a friendship with someone. I value respect that much. I hope that person does the same.

This is my first time doing this and my hands are shaking and my heart is palpitating at rage right now. I literally needed to condition myself with fun music to calm me down.

No amount of motivation for tidying up your things can match the pressure of finding an assumed "lost" property that's badly needed to be borrowed by someone...

 It took me less than 5 minutes to clean up only to realize that what I was trying to find is only behind my laptop. *facepalm*

Wackiest groupmates ever - Strangers who clicked together

These are my groupmates during my first and last make-up class for Physics Laboratory this college. I never expected it would be so fun because most of the time, whenever you're grouped with strangers, it's a very awkward experience. But these guys weren't at all! Every second with them was enjoyable that I promised them I will come visit next time; and that next time was today!

It was so great that the professor did not notice me at all! Even with my two slices of pizza and a bottled water on my hands and quite a noisy entrance, he didn't notice that I wasn't even part of that class! =)) He is also my professor in my lab class though so he totally knows me, he was just busy looking after his students that's why he didn't see me xD (I'm on stealth mode ;) )

These guys were as talkative as ever, but are now closer than before :) Almost half of them eat lunch together, and yeah I ate lunch with them today too! At the Intramuros walls which I never have eaten before, so it's pretty memorable. I also met the guy who weren't present during my make-up class and he is as nice as the other guys :)) He commented on my "I miss you guys blah blah blah" post in their fb group as if I have met him before so it was weird xD

I confessed to them that it's my first time eating in the Walls today, and I'm about to watch cinema for the first time ALSO TODAY in SM North Edsa :) ♥

I also ate tahong and chicken today in the Walls which I missed so much (tahong) and our sitting arrangement is (clockwise): Ate Diane-Tom-Ate Elisha-Me-Enrix-Brandon. It was also raining mildly so it's such a nice day =)) Our other roommate Ate Gabby and her friend Ate Marian also bought food at where we are eating at; she was surprised I ate there, and, well, everyone is xD Especially the fact that I have never been in cinemas =))

I'm always the one who gets the bad reputation because I'm the one who speak for the rest. Then those other people with the same sentiment aren't even concerned at all because it's not them who had other people's respect taken away from them.

Another example of "How Life is Unfair".

18th Birthday Celebrations (yes, PLURAL)

May 23 - ALL BY MYSELF
Design class, and indulge my favorite pizza flavor and milk tea all by myself <3 Watched Beauty and the Beast and slept at 4:30 am
May 24 - I LOVE E.K.
ALL ODDS WERE AT FAVOR! No classes in Math21, Eng12 and Btech2! The sky is clear and bright, it did not rain! I woke up past 6am! That's merely 1.5 hours of sleep, yet wasn't groggy at all during the Enchanted Kingdom expedition! My bus trip only took an hour! I was able to reach Denise's house at 10am :)
IT WAS GREAT! "I love EK!"



May 25 - RELATIVES DAY
Woke up in Denise's house. Slept side by side with my beloved friends Eisen (on my left) and Sean (on my right). Sean wore the Bleach tshirt I gave him, the first time I saw him wearing it in person. He said he always wears it in iAcademy but not in Mapua LOL. We left at 10am because I was gonna meet my sister in Goldilocks. I left wearing my sleeping clothes xD
My relatives came and had a great time harvesting mangoes and celebrate the birthday with me. I'm just concerned with mommy being too busy the whole day.

May 26 - CAKE DAY
Mommy woke me up quarter to 5. I slept with the laptop on me, and yes, sitting. Not again -__- Came back to Manila at 6:45. Rowena was beside me in the bus from Alabang to Manila. I brought a cake with me during Physics lab so that it will stay cool (because it's too cold in the room). I sit-in inside Ma'am Jing's Visual Communications 3 class because I figured she'll let me. She took a portion of the cake and cut the whole cake in the process :) I bought a Root Beer and Sprite. I talked to Alan Fong while waiting for Planning class to end. It was really nice I shared a lot of stuffs with him. He can't come to eat cake with us because he has class >.< Denzel, Arvin, Wayne, Joah Lou, Bryan, Jorene, Christine Soto, Jireh, Melinda, Mon, JB, Ate Matz, Calvin (frosh Phylab groupmate) ate the cake with me. Then played with soft pastels after and left school while it's raining. I did not eat anything rightafter. At 10pm, Ate Marian shared her 'Sansrival' Starbucks cake with me. MY GOSH, IT'S TOO SWEET! :)) I needed water so I went upstairs. So yeah, I only ate cake the whole day.

Celebrating my 18th birthday - THE FIRST DAY (and the real date)

First off: The night. I "camped" on our dorm room's floor and borrowed a dorm furniture. The only thick blanket I have is the Hannah Montana blanket my eldest sister bought so I used that. At the same time, I was wearing a Hannah Montana lavender t-shirt. Talk about "Hannah Montana" =))

Then I slept with two pillows with me. I suddenly woke up to see my roommate ate Gabby greeting me "Happy birthday!". I feel like my brain was still floating above me then and I looked at the clock and it said "1am". f

The morning, I woke up before 7am. I wasn't able to go to church. I only lazed around and did mani-pedi which took me the whole morning because the first two nail polishes I'm using weren't good. Then I tried the red one, and it was really beautiful! It also speaks out "It's my birthday" for being too red =))

It was already 12noon when I get ready for school and actually eat. The moment I texted my neighbor friend (she's like a sister to me), she said she's in our dorm lobby waiting for her son (a freshman in our school). We hugged each other and I received a greeting from her :) Before I was able to go to the canteen, the security guards gestured that there's a gift that was left for me. I thought it was from Ate Tweeny, but I figured it's from Lorinell's. She really loves to gift stuff that's from Blue Magic =))

In the canteen, I ate with Ate Joanna, who was in line for the One Direction concert tickets earlier this morning. I admire her patience and dedication for her idols =)) I wasn't able to do that for Taylor Swift :(

When we went back inside the dorm, the cashier overheard a dormmate greeting me so she greet me too :)) Then the two guards also greeted me.

When I was about to enter the school, I saw Jorene (my batchmate-dormmate) and she shouted her greetings to me, making everyone around know it's my birthday! So the pedicab drivers greeted me "Oh, Happy birthday Ma'am/Miss!" etc etc, it was a really funny experience, I was smiling on my way to the South building. Then I saw Milan (an attractive friend of mine HOHOHO he might feel praised if he reads this XDD) and he hugged me just like he always does when he sees me, but I don't hug back XD I was expecting him to greet me but HE DID NOT. But I didn't tell him. I want him to find it out himself =))

In the classroom, I believe the first person who shouted his greetings is my "twin" Bryan, then my other classmates greeted me, too. But not everyone, only those who are truly kind to me :)) I was mentally smirking to those people who did not actually greet me even when we're less than 3 meters apart. Anyway, Bryan and I coincidentally had the same t-shirt design, only I was wearing the white shirt with red text, and he wore the red shirt with the black text. Yeah, he was wearing RED and he was the one who received a gift from me =)) because it was supposed to be last May12 but we had never met since then. Man, I really would love to take a picture of the two of us, but it's not allowed, so I'm trying not to forget such coincidences (just like when we were about to go to a site visit and I was wearing pink checkered blouse while he was wearing black/dark gray). Our professor arrived late and we were chitchatting and joking around. Arvin and Denzel was joking around saying they have gifts for me but it's only the things I have which they "steal" from me and present me afterwards.

Our professor's lectures were nice, it was really worth it. We had a lot of fun in the process. On the way downstairs, we encountered Ma'am Jing and Ma'am Gacutan. I figured they had no idea that it was my birthday so I was a bit disappointed but I know Ma'am Jing will find out in facebook later, and I really don't want to say out "Hi ma'am, it's my birthday!" It's just like---bragging or something. Rowena and I had chitchats on the way about dogs and her pet rabbits, and I parted ways when I was about to go to SM Manila, by myself, to eat pizza =))

It wasn't sad, actually. It's lovely to indulge your favorite pizza flavor all by yourself without anyone to share it with and buy a milk tea from Chatime! T'was Grass Coffee Jelly milk tea and Vegetarian Pizza with pineapple add-on. I want to bake a pizza too.>.< I like the staff of Shakey's because they always smile. Miss Catherine even handed over a glass of cold water when I wasn't asking for it. Such a kind gesture. In the comfort room, which I used only because I was curious of how it looks like, had a urinal and gladly I had measuring tools with me so finally I measured the actual sizes and space requirements needed for the urinal =)) I made two women wait though :P "Whatever, it's my birthday!" ;)

After that, I bought some stuff for the Enchanted Kingdom expedition! I also LEGALLY played in the lottery because I'm now 18, and that's just a good way to start the 18th privileges =)) Too bad I lost.

It's merely three days before I turn 18 and yet I'm getting addicted to Disney once again. Talk about heading to maturity =))

“With the kind of access you have to information, you have no excuse to be ignorant.”

Pedicab Driver Ate Heidi

Naglalakad ako sa walls malapit sa Letran kanina-nina lang, papunta kasi akong Starbucks which is kaunting lakaran na lang sana kaso nakita ako ng isang pedicab driver. "Ma'am, Fort Santiago ma'am?" ang sabi ko hindi po, dyan lang ako sa Starbucks, malapit lang naman. Pero inaalok nya pa rin na ihatid nya ako sa Starbucks, bente pesos lang. Hindi na ako tumanggi, kasi tulong ko na rin yun sa kanya since wala masyadong pasahero ngayon, at sobrang init pa. Saka babae syang nag pe-pedicab kaya nais kong makatulong sa kanya.

Una kong napansin ang mga tarpaulin na nagpataas sa upuan ng pedicab nya. Tapos may tuwalya syang pangligo sa inuupuan nyang de-padyak. Sinimulan nyang makipag usap sa akin sa salitang "Ang init, ano po?" "Naglagay na ako ng basang bimpo sa ulo ko kasi high-blood ako, pampawi ng init!" Naalala ko ang nanay ko na ganun din ang gawain kaya't nabida ko rin sa kanya iyon. Nasabi nya rin na natulungan nyang maagapan ang stroke ng kamag-anak nya dahil nagmadali syang maglagay ng malamig sa ulo nito. Pinuri din daw ang ginawa nya ng doktor ng kamag anak nya dahil magandang first aid daw iyon.

Pagdating namin sa Starbucks, sarado pala ito kaya nagpahatid na lang ako pabalik sa dorm ko. Bago pa man iyon, naglagay ulit sya ng tubig sa bimpo nya kasi natuyo na yung bimpo nya dahil sa tirik na araw, at napansin kong naubos nya na ang tubig nya. Buti may dala akong tubigan, naisip kong ibigay sa kanya iyon pagbayad ko.

Nung papunta na kami sa dorm ko, nabanggit nya sa akin na sa bangketa lang sila natutulog ng mga apo nya. Wala nang mga magulang ang dalawa nyang apo kaya't sila na lamang tatlo ang magkakasama. Dati raw silang natutulog sa may Lyceum at tingin ko nga ay nakita ko na sila noon sa labas ng skul na iyon. Lubos akong naawa lalo at nahiya at the same time ay naramdaman kong maswerte ako sa buhay ko ngayon. Nai-reklamo nya rin sa akin yung isa nya daw suki na nagbigay ng maliit na pagkain galing Starbucks na worth 500pesos! Grabe nga ang mahal, pero nanghihinayang sya sa ganung pagkain dahil ipangbibili nya na lang sana ng mga damit ng mga apo nya iyung halagang iyon. Hindi naman daw mahalagang makakain ng masarap ang kanyang mga apo, ika niya. Tama, needs before wants. Hindi nya ma-accept na makakuha sya ng bagay na ang halaga ay pwede pa sanang maging mas makabuluhan.

Nasabi ko sa kanyang Architecture ang course ko, at namangha sya sa akin. Sa loob-loob ko naman ay sana makapag patayo ako ng bahay para sa kanila. Mukha syang taong may "ibubuga". Makapagpatayo man lang sana sya ng tindahan ay aangat ang buhay nya. Naaawa rin naman ako sa mga apo nya kahit hindi ko pa sila nakilala dahil ganun ang buhay nilang mag-lola. Sana naman ay pagpalain sila ng Panginoon at makaraos sila.

Sana ako'y makatulong sa kanila.

Yun lang yung nagawa ko kaninang paglabas ko. Kumain lang sa tabi ng dorm tapos naglakad papunta sanang Starbucks. Pero nakilala ko sya.

Napaginipan ko ang Meteor Garden. Seriously! Pero wala sa series yung story =))

Ako si San Chai sa panaginip kong ito. At first, kaming tatlo daw nila Dao Ming Si at Xing He (?) ay na-late tapos may punishment kaming magpatawa sa harap ng classroom. Obvious sa mga itsura namin na nahihiya kami at the same time napipilitan pero tumawa naman yung mga kaklase namin. Then hirit pa ng mga kaklase, "Ulit pa!", halatang pinagti-tripan na kami. Pumayag yung cool-looking prof namin, pero ang totoo pala, may seatwork na kami. About stat nga eh xD or basta yung Math ni Sean ngayon xD siguro kasi nabasa ko yung exam nila kahapon sa chat sa fb :))

Tatlong questions ang given sa seatwork, ang pagkakaintindi ko mystery questions sila kaya dibdiban ako kung mag formulate ng sagot. However, si Dao Ming Si naman, parang tahimik at seryoso yung titig sa kawalan. Nag-iisip pala sya. Tapos bigla syang umupo at nag solve. Nakatingin ako sa kanya nung nangyari yun, tapos inexplain nya sakin kung pano nya na-solve.

-SUDDEN CHANGE OF SCENE, LUNCH-
Magkakasama kaming kumain ng F4 sa lugar na mukhang hagdanan yung likuran pero wala namang dumadaan nung time na nakain kami. Kaming dalawa lang ni Dao Ming Si yung napansin kong magsisimulang kumain tapos yung character ni Vaness Wu eh walang sawa kung tumawa kay Dao Ming Si! "Kelan ka pa naging magaling sa Math?", "Parang hindi ikaw yun hah?!", "Mantakin mo, ikaw lang ang naka-solve nung mga tanong?", kutya ng mga kaibigan nya. Wala namang ma-utal si Dao Ming Si.

 Tumpak na tumpak yung tawa ni Vaness sa tagalog dub dun sa panaginip ko, gayang gaya sa episode kahapon ng Meteor Garden na wagas makatawa si Vaness. Tapos ako naman (San Chai), bitter na bitter pala during the whole time, kasi bakit ako hindi ko nasagot yung mga tanong? Nakasimangot lang ako habang naghahagalpakan na sa kakatawa yung iba, tapos napansin ako ni Dao Ming Si, "Oh anong problema mo?" Eh kakatapos ko lang kumain ng lunch nun, tapos nag start na akong kumain ng saging bilang panghimagas. Kumuha ako ng isang kagat, tapos with a full mouth, dinuduro ko sya na para bang isa akong bata na nagmamaktol without words, kasi nakain ako xD "Anong meron? LQ?" tanong ni Xi Men. Tumigil na sa kakatawa nun si Vaness pero hyper pa rin sya. Hindi ko talaga napansin si Lei the whole time pero tingin nasa background lang sya, alam nyo naman sya xD

Ako naman, nilatag ko na lang yung the rest ng kakainin ko pa (nang pa-inis/pa-dabog): basta lima pa ata yun eh, may juice or milk, ___, ___, saging na panget, tapos inumin ulit. Since dalawa yung inumin ko at may saging na ako, (pero maganda yung kinakain ko, walang lamog) binigay ko kay Dao Ming Si yung saging na lamog saka yung isang beverage, habang nakasimangot pa rin ako. Na-cute-an naman sina Vaness dun tapos pinagku-kutsa nila kami. Eto namang si Dao Ming Si, una parang na-touch sa gesture ko, pero ayaw nya dun sa pangit na saging, "Ano tong saging na toh? Ayoko nito! Yang sayo na lang!"

As in nag try syang hablutin yung saging na kinakain ko. "Hello! Kinakain ko na toh. Tsaka, saging pa rin naman yan eh! Yung balat lang yung panget! Pero syempre mas maganda pa rin yung akin xD" -sa isip-isip ko yan ang sinasabi ko, busy lang akong kumain. Buti nga binigyan ko pa sya ng pagkain ko eh. Pero hindi ako maka-get over sa pag try nyang manghablot ng pagkain ng iba. Like HECK? THE "Dao Ming Si", manghahablot ng saging na nasa bibig na ng iba, na bawas na! =)) Pero wala syang magawa, mas tough ako sa kanya! Napakain ko sa kanya yung saging na bigay ko. Pero syempre nilagay nya sa plato yung saging at gumamit sya ng tinidor xD
-THE END-

Mukha lang makatotohanan and true pa naman sa characters nila yung sa panaginip ko kaya pinagpilitan kong hindi pa matulog habang tanda ko pa yung panaginip XD Gusto kong maitago itong alaala. :) Time check: 5:16am - ito yung time na natapos kong i-type sa memo (3 part series) ang storyang ito. 4:30 yata ako nagising gawa ng panaginip na yun? XD MARAMING SALAMAT SA PAGBASA! Ciao!

I was outside our house with my face next to my cat Maring, hugging her and watching her tolerate my annoyance. Then, a neighborhood friend passed by and saw me XDDD

Just something random and funny to share XD Because it is rare for someone I know pass by our house and then when he did, he stumbled to that kind of scene of me and my cat XDD So embarrassing =))

Yesterday was one of the rarest times I was able to go out just because I hate being in the house x) That was such a special day.

Yesterday was a very long day for me. I woke up early just to think of what should I do the whole day. I don't feel like being idle at home, so I want to go out. But then I cannot come up of any reasons for my mother to permit me to go outside. So then I went to my room upstairs for a bit. I was like getting crazy with my hatred of being idle for the whole day, and decided to put on my watch and hoped that when I go down, mommy will permit me already.

To my surprise, my sister was about to go out! That was my chance! Our mother wasn't able to do anything about it because we're both ready, and I was so happy deep inside because AT LAST I can breathe out of this house! And so I surprised visit a friend whom I just recently visited together with our other friends. I just had a chitchat with her and it was worth it. During the last visit I wasn't able to talk a lot and properly ask her how she's been and all that. That might probably be my last visit this "summer vacation", the summer vacation which I simply did not utilize. Because usually, I'm just at home playing with the cats, watching vines and anything entertaining, and nothing too special. I know I could've done a lot of better stuffs but I just don't have the motivation to do them. As this week gets near to its end, I feel like I'm closer and closer to my death sentence --- because SCHOOL IS BACK. Hello fourth term.

Bonding with my best of friends - perfect combination

            April 11, 2014, yesterday, was the first time the four of us were together after our high school graduation. That was a bittersweet two years. Because of the daily lives of a college/university student, we don't usually contact each other even in social media and sms. Yesterday was a good chance to meet up after those two years since it's summer vacation and we don't have anything to do XDD

            I love it when the four of us opened up to each other, when I realized what we are without each other and how terrible it is, and how better it is to be with them more than anyone else in this world.

            I feel pity that we all have to go through this struggle. I was hoping that all these with bear a satisfying fruit rightafter. But I know that all the lost time without each other is irreplaceable.

To keep as a souvenir of this lovely day, which is to be cherished during the days when we don't feel each others' presence but I want them with me, we took 157 photos of wackiness and vanity XD

First, we shot ourselves as our normal selves.

Then we became as "angelic" as this:

Then as serious as this:

Then, just...this XD

                           

Such a pretty effect with umm.. random expressions XD I think we're all trying to be cute,

except Kristine must be trying to be FIERCE :'>

Then OFF TO WACKYLAND!!

Sorry for scaring you. :))

Inferno. Girls on fire. Eisen is really feeling the heat. xD

Sadako Kristine "coming out of the television" ;)

Kristine acting as Sadako and me as a crazy woman, while the other two acting as "clueless individuals".

         
In the end, we are just these simple, cute, pretty individuals. All studying at colleges and universities
at least 30 kilometers away from each other.

 

April 11, 2014. At Denise Gem's house.

Read the italicized words.

I'm really negative right now, not again! I just thought of how much I hate the government we have and the overall system. Our current issues and problems are planned to be solved by 2016 and not NOW? Do they think that problems won't become worse when that year arrives? Like, WHAT THE HECK. I want the system to change RIGHT NOW, in the snap of the finger.

I really want a lot of stuffs to change with the lead of a great individual. But it will take a huge amount of money (well actually I hope not) and manpower and COOPERATION. It is possible, but humans are just coward to drastic change.

But then, I'm reminded of the terrible Roman empire, and all those "Medieval past". Life was worse those days. I am sure a lot of powerless people opposed their current state but just cannot do anything about it. So then I contemplate, 

Why is the world isn't in a state where it's supposed to be? Why is the world like this? Why do things have to be hard on most individuals? Why do most of the people have to struggle in order to live? Is this what the world has to be?

Then I start to doubt God. I feel terrible for even thinking about such a thing. But then if I don't doubt Him, I come back to those italicized words. Just those words, versus that doubt. It is so ironic to have such thoughts when the Holy week is just about to start.

"ENDINGS"

So today, I had watched a lot of endings of the series I was watching the whole vacation.

1. To the Beautiful You - Korean version of HanaKimi (Sulli &Choi Minho) The reason I got hooked in this is because of the cool design of their dormitory and everything followed.
I was quite disappointed with the ending only because the conclusion (what happens after the climax) was so short and quick, I would've liked it better if they at least alloted more time for it, for me to be satisfied :( The ending did not fulfill me at all.

2. Hyouka - anime I had a crush on Oreki's cute hair most especially when he just woke up, and his deductive skills got me interested.

I literally watched only the final episodes of these two series. I had already finished the episodes before the ending but, I specially alloted a "right day" for me to watch them (which is today).

3. Gakuen Alice manga chapter 180!! Thanks to a concerned anime-addicts friend, I was informed that the ever-awaited translation of the final chapter has been released in manga sites! :')) Like, this is the best day ever! *I'm crying my heart out with tears of joy! ♥♥♥

I love the ending, it was so fulfilling. Thank you HIGUCHI TACHIBANA for creating a wonderful story of love, perseverance and friendship! I will definitely treasure Gakuen Alice with all my heart! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

!!UPDATED AT 12:13AM!! 4. Super Happy Ending with Goemon at Ninja Love Plus - android game Yes, today I also did my best to finish collecting 7 passports so that I can pass the Checkpoint and Continue Our Romance :3 I felt like I'm in my own anime in that game, and I'm using my codename Chaertai in it. Now, I'm with the smartest, most sly, talented and hottest ninja ever :">

Also, this next statement is not actually related to what I watch, but it is just something that happened in this special day, so I will add it in this post.

Okay. Yesterday, I said I will wake up at 6am to jog very early the next day. Without any alarm clock and I slept by 11pm last night, I suddenly woke up today at 6am. I feel drowsy yet but it was unusual for me to wake up that early so it must be fate or a good opportunity, so I forced myself to actually jog.

At 6:35, I went outside wearing my red&black jersey shorts and a white tshirt with red prints and my watch. I agreed to my mother to not go far but I only said yes for her not to worry so much, but I walk-jog not just in our area, but around the WHOLE subdivision. Imagine walk-jog around a 350-acre subdivision! I thought it will need an hour to go around it, but I cannot believe I was able to go back home at 7:05?!? SERIOUSLY, for only 30 minutes?

But it was not easy. I, who is not advised to do strenious activities, felt like my heart was gonna burst, my head and abdomen ached, and I wasn't able to eat anything for the next 15-30 minutes 'coz I felt like I will throw up. I took a rest for more than an hour before going online and everything. That was THAT BAD. But I guess I felt better with everything because someone commented "Impressive" on what I achieved today. =)

Sense of Danger

"Even before the Tree of Genesis appeared, there was war, starvation, crime, natural disaster, poverty, and illness that claimed tens of thousands throughout the world. Yet no one really had a sense of danger.It doesn't matter if billions have died. This is how the world always was." 

With all the temporary entertainments that are indulging us, the more we don't bother ourselves with the possible dangers that can surprisingly occur. As most of the adolescents these days say, "YOLO. You only live once." But COME ON! Scientists, Geologists, whoever they are, have been warning us! Because they receive a small amount of "limelight" or media exposure, only a few notice their warning of the possible dangers that can suddenly happen! I am one of them. I am emotionally, and psychologically ready to face a sudden catastrophe that might happen, even if I am not physically fit, I have my strong will as backup to keep me alive. If I can't survive, then fine, death accepted.

That is why when I found out about a personal accident insurance, and about how easy it is to apply one, I applied myself in that insurance. Whatever happens in the near future, at least I have a backup with me. I don't want a sudden accident nor a sudden death become a major financial problem for my family. 

I don't actually intend to advertise this, but this is not a bad offer at all. I highly recommend that we should all have our own insurance, it will help us in times of emergency.

Call me paranoid, but I am really like this. I even double-think of having my own car because I wouldn't want something as valuable as a car suddenly be caught in the middle of an accident, or a flood, that will make me abandon it. I might consider a car as my baby, and I emotionally cannot leave "my baby" for the sake of my survival. People call me a hoarder, but I'm just a "Girl Scout". I have all necessities I need, from first aid, flashlight, to school supplies. I buy a new "stock" before my current gets totally used up. That's how 'paranoid' I am.

The Civilization Blaster

In contrary to the characters' will to save the modern civilization in the anime, I prefer the annihilation of it. The reason why we are protecting this civilization is to protect ourselves. For short, for our own selfish reasons. I would like the Earth to regain its peace.

Humans, right after gaining knowledge, did nothing but damage the natural cycle of the world. There are some who try their best to inflict as less damage as possible, but nobody has not inflict any damage to this world. We are the world's worst pests. The world would be a much better place without us, even if it is such a waste that nobody would glory it anymore.

"Even before the Tree of Genesis appeared, there was war, starvation, crime, natural disaster, poverty, and illness that claimed tens of thousands throughout the world. Yet no one really had a sense of danger.

It doesn't matter if billions have died. This is how the world always was." 

I am forever at awe with MANDY MOORE!!!

I know I have a blog about her before, but I happened to watch her voice-act once again and I AM STILL AT AWE WITH HER VOICE!!!

"Walang ka-kupas-kupas!" Her voice is flawless! For someone who has definitely an admiration for voice talents, I would love to have a voice like that! Every time I hear her voice in Tangled, it pierces through my heart and lifts my soul! It makes me wanna cry!! As in I get teary-eyed from so much admiration, I really really love her!!

She is one of my most loved voices in this world!

I actually want to be a part-time voice actress someday, and I was surprised that they (referring to the video: Mandy Moore, Zachary Levi, etc) can deliver the script with full emotions but without excessive facial expressions! --I meant without a hint of struggle on their faces. So that is how to dub. And I like the dubbing studio (or whatever you call it xD), the interior is so SWEET! (I cannot think of any adjectives to represent it at the moment) As an architecture student, I like it! <3 <3

I really admire stuffs like these <3 I LOVE YOU MANDY MOORE!!!

"We all make mistakes. You just have to accept what happened, and fix what you can." - Kurosaki Ichigo

I should've took down notes of all the quotes from Bleach ever since I started watching it. I have learned a lot of life lessons from this anime, that is why it is very special to me.
Every character has his own trick and ways to fight. Every one of them has his own resolve, which they hold on to in every battle they encounter.

Some hold on to their honor and pride, because there are people important to them that they could not lose.
One fears his own capabilities, because in fear, one will not be overconfident.
Some do their jobs with emotions aside. Responsibilities are responsibilities. Missions are missions. Obligations are obligations.
There are people who struggle to become stronger. Some gets too engulfed on his ambition, some do it for the sake of protecting their loved ones.

I have to stop here. I really wished I had took down notes ever since I started watching this anime, because I'm not really a person to rewatch things again. But we will never know. I love Bleach.

I thank my friend for giving me his copy of the anime. Even if before I wasn't interested in it, I forced myself to watch because I am intrigued by Toushirou Hitsugaya, a character which is voiced by my favorite Seiyuu (voice actress) of all time, Romi Paku. I actually got hooked after watching a few episodes, all because of the lessons I receive from it.

I hate the fact that people would have to struggle just to cope up with rules that other people created.

If we could all just follow the Ten Commandments by God.

P.S.: I also hate the fact that my blog is now full of rants, but I just want the world to know my rants, hoping that the world could change because of these blogs.

I hate the conventional system of education in this world (or maybe just in our country)

If you have failed a subject and missed the average grade, a high-quality university will no longer accept you.

What about the people who have failed maybe several times to realize that their current school is just not working for him/her? They want to change but now it's too late for them. Much worse if they happen to have such a potential but is currently at the wrong place, not being eligible to go to the place they now want is not going to help them!

"You have lots of talents, you have confidence in yourself that would be enough to make you a full made bread". I will keep this in mind my friend, thank you for seeing those things in me.

I consider myself very fortunate these past few days.

I did not do my plates and did not bring anything last Tuesday: Turns out, we don't need to bring anything.
Today I did not study well for the supposedly quiz because I overslept: Turns out our midterms are plates, and we will have to pass it later. At school I don't have any drafting tools with me, but since we can pass it later, I can do the plates here in my dorm :)

Oh yeah, I feel like I'm blessed :)

I'm not anti-social. I'm just selectively social.

I used to be very sociable in school, when I only knew another block but now that I know everyone, and find out who's really nice and who's not, I tend to only be social at people I trust.

I am not sociable in the dorm. I only know them by face, and that's it. I like the feeling that I can get in and out of my room without greeting anyone, or rather just a few friends from other rooms.

I am very sociable with guards. I don't know, every guard from evey establishment I go to likes me! O.o My friend whom I used to walk around places noticed that wherever we go, guards greet me "Good morning!" "Good afternoon!" whatsoever. Of course I greet back. Some guards notice me because I am always smiling. O.o??? Yes, I am surprised too.

I am good friends with people in Adams. As in they like me and I like them too :) They were even the first ones to receive Valentine's chocolates this year. They like me so much that last term they asked me to let them go to our house on Christmas xD Maybe I will invite them on my debut (If I will have one)

So that's it, I just explained how I am selectively social. I'm a terribly keen cat so I analyze carefully who's a person that's truly be trusted and who's a plastic. It was because I used to trust everyone innocently but disappointed me.

I was astounded with the news I received while I was browsing my news feed. A prophecy about an illness that'll harm a lot of people? So now a lot of us are scared, gonna start "praying and repenting for your sins, or else you'll be harmed". IS THAT WHAT YOU CALL FAITH?

Whether it is has any connections with the Bible or not, it's already there. Keep calm and do your best to be a good human being. 

Besides, that illness must've been caused by severe human intervention. The world's balance (food chain/circle of life) is terribly ruined because of our selfish "economic acts". Scientific studies already says it all: the population of disease-causing microorganisms is growing as part of the unbalance in nature - its predators are diminishing & unsanitary practices in the urban community is what makes them alive. So now we are back to the great cause of the unbalance: HUMAN OVERPOPULATION. We think we're useful; satisfying our own wants and desires, but all we are are pests if we keep contributing to the mess and not even helping out in cleaning and preventing it.

We have abused this world too much. If this is the punishment fitted for all of us, then so be it.

But not everyone deserves to be punished. Why do those people who are more suited to get punished always gets away just because they have money? I wish there really is a place like hell for such kinds of people. I am also into the idea of "Death Note"- it only needs to be handled by someone so just, to eliminate all those who are terribly rotten.

We are created to be good, but we abuse all that's good in this world. We don't care whether it'll be gone later, as long as we use it now.

So yeah, I really don't want to join the fuzz. But it gets on my nerves. Wish us luck, humans.