I've been spending these past few days watching movies in my laptop, and I just realized right now how much I enjoy it by myself. By myself I'm free to express my feelings -- aloud, Operatic (Imagine Ouran Host Club's Lo be lia~~ chant.That's what I mean.), Fan-girl screams, laugh, trashtalk, love-love-love, CRY or be in tears. I easily feel uneasy when other people (public/ those who aren't my friends) have the chance to see my reactions/feelings, I dunno why, I don't have "stage frights" whatsoever, I can handle being a presenter, but maybe I'm just brought up like that. Even answering phone calls in public I would sound robotic (w/o emotions). I feel uneasy expressing myself in front of others. I cannot imagine myself being in a cinema. I might just be a ball of emotionless BEAtch in there.
But also, maybe it might also be just a part of growing up with only me and my mom. I grew up being an introvert at home. My happiness at home is being alone after a tiring day of being extrovert at school (This makes me an omnivert - both extro and intro). It was like in our home I am charging my energy for the next day.
Another thing, I'm the kind of person who loves ending credits so much. In that long black credits I have the time to appreciate the movie more; with the background music, the movie flashes back to me - it's like the most precious moment to me. Also with the credits we could see how many participated in creating the movie and you just want to thank them all with the bottom of your heart, even if you don't know them x) The thing I'm looking out for the most in movies is the music titles - if I want their music. Some I have already found in Youtube, some I just love reading in the Credits, along with the other stuffs. I don't think I'd be able to do that in cinemas. Right after "The End" people starts leaving and it's peer pressure that will force you to leave along with them.
I think I won't reach the kind of fulfillment I feel when I watch at home versus watching in cinemas. At home the screen is mine and mine alone. I can even playback the scene whenever I want to and it's for free. I can eat BUFFET, take breaks, dance with the upbeat scene, sing as loud as I can and I don't even have to pay for transportation 'coz I'm just in my humble abode! My cats can also have the privilege to watch. It's the best at home. I appreciate the movie more because I waited for years. I don't buy pirated cd's, it's a waste of space in my CD cabinet. If there's a CD/DVD I would buy it if I want to --if I can't watch it online. But maybe someday I would watch in a cinema, even for once. Not now though, because I swear to keep my oath to remain "Never been to cinemas" until I graduate. It'll be a great achievement you know :3
