Being lucky goes with my name, I guess?

I just found out that my first name, Beatrice means "Bringer of Joy"/ "She who Blesses"/ "Voyager (through life)"/ "Blessed" ; Ann means "He (God) has favored me".

I always feel that way. It's like there are coincidences all the time, they're pretty awesome and always never fail to surprise me.

Just three of my previous most memorable coincidences yet are:

1. My sister bought a random CD entitled "The Family Man". I was surprised that one of the buildings there is the Seagram building by Mies Van de Rohe and Philip Johnson (a building w/c I knew and find to be very nice & beautiful)  and later in the movie I found out that the main character is an architect. Of all professions, right? It's a movie, and I seldom know movies w/c have an architect as its lead role, well actually this might've been my first time encountering one. Anyway, those two points about that movie are just bonuses. Great bonuses, indeed. What stood out in this movie is that it made me realize something about what I should think about for the future. And know I still keep such things in mind. I'll just keep it to myself though. It might need a separate blog. HAHA The story was about a guy who chose career over having a family, just a hint. - I just thought very deeply about that.
2. Just yesterday, on my way home, this bus I rode was playing this "Journey to West: Conquering the Demons". I wasn't interested at first but then Shu Qi was in it! An actress I have watched in two other films "So Close" and "Transporter" - also watched in the buses I have rode (Free movies in the bus, yaay) Yes, if I find the movie I have watched in the bus interesting, I google it at home/dorm. Also, it was about Buddhism and it just made me realize the deep faith, and that you truly would not attain enlightenment without severe sacrifice and I find it hard to believe in something that doesn't seem to exist - there's pride and fear at the same time, that gives you "blurred faith"/ you are not fully committed to the Lord, stuffs like that. And since it was Buddhism, and I'm currently studying Asian architecture, it made me become more interested in them and it just makes me want to study everything about Buddhism, and other religionsSSSS. *Ain't nobody got time for that! XD*
3. Earlier, 500 Days of Summer was the movie in the television. I wanted to watch it because Zooey Deschanel was there. But then, to my surprise, the main character (the guy) has studied architecture and later in the story he tried to pursue it... AGAIN! Of all professions, right? Also, the 500th day in the movie is May Twenty-third, my birthday! I was like:
   
   Of all the 365 days of the year??
   
   
   
   
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   The persons I meet individually in college is surprisingly connected to another person I have met in not just a simple way. The first coincidence ever is that my previous roommate's classmates in MathPlus is actually my bloc mates and my classmates in MathPlus is her bloc mates! It's like exchange gifts! And then this group of senpais I know, some of them were my classmates, two of them helped that class of ours, the other one I personally met, and the other one I become close online -- it was just recently that I found out that they were pals/"nakama"!! And many other people, I'm not that surprised with my Architecture batch mates though, because *of course* everyone started out as bloc-sections so it wouldn't be very surprising (it's considered a "simple way"). Anyway,..
   
   
   Such coincidences are just plain awesomeness, right? Or maybe I just love noticing such good stuffs, because they're GOOD~ God never fails to give me something I would treasure for my lifetime. Whether it was bad at first, later it will reveal itself as a blessing in disguise. If you always look at that way, you would feel blessed and very rich. Just like my name ;) Strive to look at the bright side, or you yourself should turn it up and make the odds be on your favor.

Even Vitruvius apologizes for any grammatical errors in his book because he wrote that book as an ARCHITECT, not a grammarian whatsoever. Nobody's perfect. All of us don't master EVERYTHING.

This might be copyright infringement, please do tell me because I will delete the picture if I must. I'm just lazy to type that, so I just screenshot.
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I woke up at 4:37 a.m. as far as I can remember what I saw on the clock, so I read my copy the pdf file of that book. Now that it's just two hours before my first class today, I feel sleepy again. -_-

Darn body, why are you waking me up when I lack sleep? >.< I know I haven't completed 8 hours and then it automatically wakes me up and not making me go back to sleep?!?! ughhhhhhh

Just complaining. At least I gained knowledge ...somehow ;D

I am accident prone.

Either I'm the careless one or there's a careless person (or people) around me.
I cannot already count how many times I almost get hit by vehicles. I've been hit by basketball balls but I'm too numb to care or get hurt about that XD

• I always tend to bump and fell things almost everyday. Or every class, or stuffs I have. It's a nuisance for everyone affected by my "accidents" and I'm sick of it, yet clumsiness never leaves me -_-
• I'm careless, a lot of times, I thought I was over being like that. Yet I still am.
• I was careless with Math. During competitions, I know how to solve it yet there's some stupid arithmetic carelessness sometimes. I can say that it happens a lot, it IS my downfall, but it's not like it's "every time". "Occassionally", I guess? :P

Here's the reason why I actually made this blog right now:

Earlier, right after lunch, a person on a bicycle carelessly drove that almost hit a car, moved to his right, and almost hit me. Then just minutes ago, a motorcycle and a taxi almost hit each other on a junction, they had such possibility to have an accident and I was almost in front of that motor (I was by the sidewalk~! Some vehicles park there so I feel safe; vehicles cannot drive literally beside the sidewalk, right? And I was walking right there, so I should not be hit by them. Unless they're drunk though :/)

Yes, I really made an illustration because it's hard to explain without visualizing it.

Okay, lesson learned: Just stay at the sidewalk. That is still a road and you might get hit.

But the street of our dorm actually don't have any concrete sidewalks. I consider the side of the road being the "sidewalk", so as other humans walking by that street. :P

I guess I really just have to be careful, more cautious; if there will be an accident, I must learn how to dodge/get away from it to avoid being involve to such.

I don't want to die because of an accident. (Well, also from severe illness) Let's all stop being careless so that we won't hurt ourselves or worse, other people around you.

Afterlife.

There's another post somewhere, it's something like this, but it's about an invention that your ashes (or urn?) will be turned into coral reefs. I kind of like it. Just don't blow up the ocean, people!

I want to live underwater in my next life, because it is currently impossible. At least leave my remains underwater where I can be a shelter for the next generations of marine life. You know, once an architect and shelter-maker on the land while still alive, became a shelter underwater afterlife :))

It's like living the best of both worlds.. Once again, don't blow up the ocean for me, please :)

Me? Crying??

I'm someone who finds it hard to cry. I never cried at my dad's funeral nor his burial. Take note of that. The only instance I cried for him is when my mom woke me up to tell me that daddy is dying.

Maybe that concludes that I get over stuffs quite easily. Or maybe I had too much of dramas (stories/series/movies) and over-analyzing stuffs/emotions that I now know and understand that stuffs like that could happen; and I have seen many kinds of reactions from many kinds of stuffs that I just imagine those reactions in my mind and crying will not happen. Or it's really just that I over analyze stuffs that is why my own emotions get obliterated or confused, I don't know.

Once again I'm over analyzing. Bottomline is: It's hard for me to cry. I can't even act with tears and it is frustrating me!! So if I cry, it's truly something deep. (1. Anger/ 2. Melancholy) [I easily cry when I'm angry though, so I always end up like a loser in an argument.] Well, dramas are an exception to that. I have learned quite recently to be easily affected/touched by dramas. But I consider dramas something I intake deeply. Girls. :P

The posts in this blog serves as my bookmarks in life, highlighting what I want in the future, and what I have learned about myself.

Maybe I really am not suited to watch in cinemas [alone?]

I've been spending these past few days watching movies in my laptop, and I just realized right now how much I enjoy it by myself. By myself I'm free to express my feelings -- aloud, Operatic (Imagine Ouran Host Club's Lo be lia~~ chant.That's what I mean.), Fan-girl screams, laugh, trashtalk, love-love-love, CRY or be in tears. I easily feel uneasy when other people (public/ those who aren't my friends) have the chance to see my reactions/feelings, I dunno why, I don't have "stage frights" whatsoever, I can handle being a presenter, but maybe I'm just brought up like that. Even answering phone calls in public I would sound robotic (w/o emotions). I feel uneasy expressing myself in front of others. I cannot imagine myself being in a cinema. I might just be a ball of emotionless BEAtch in there.

But also, maybe it might also be just a part of growing up with only me and my mom. I grew up being an introvert at home. My happiness at home is being alone after a tiring day of being extrovert at school (This makes me an omnivert - both extro and intro). It was like in our home I am charging my energy for the next day.

Another thing, I'm the kind of person who loves ending credits so much. In that long black credits I have the time to appreciate the movie more; with the background music, the movie flashes back to me - it's like the most precious moment to me. Also with the credits we could see how many participated in creating the movie and you just want to thank them all with the bottom of your heart, even if you don't know them x) The thing I'm looking out for the most in movies is the music titles - if I want their music. Some I have already found in Youtube, some I just love reading in the Credits, along with the other stuffs. I don't think I'd be able to do that in cinemas. Right after "The End" people starts leaving and it's peer pressure that will force you to leave along with them.

I think I won't reach the kind of fulfillment I feel when I watch at home versus watching in cinemas. At home the screen is mine and mine alone. I can even playback the scene whenever I want to and it's for free. I can eat BUFFET, take breaks, dance with the upbeat scene, sing as loud as I can and I don't even have to pay for transportation 'coz I'm just in my humble abode! My cats can also have the privilege to watch. It's the best at home. I appreciate the movie more because I waited for years. I don't buy pirated cd's, it's  a waste of space in my CD cabinet. If there's a CD/DVD I would buy it if I want to --if I can't watch it online. But maybe someday I would watch in a cinema, even for once. Not now though, because I swear to keep my oath to remain "Never been to cinemas" until I graduate. It'll be a great achievement you know :3

Being involved in the society is an obligation.

It's funny how cute faces get more attention than world problems.

Watch documentaries or shows in GMA NewsTV. Listen to people (informal settlers) and think of ways your profession could help them. They are part of this society, most probably the ones at the bottom. If we help to stop their problems, they will stop being a burden to the society; instead of making this country rotten from the inside.

Our country will progress if we lift each other up and achieve individual growth.

Meet my favorite place at home.

That's a drawing for day 4 of 30-Day Drawing Challenge entitled "Favorite Place". That's a part of my room and it's quite a narrow spot where I feel comfortable sitting on. Well, I feel comfortable at any narrow, small spaces like a corner of a room, innermost end of a passenger seat or car or bus (by the window) and everyone are squeezing me in, and most especially, under a table. It's like a mini humble abode with the table cloth being a nice roof and I imagine myself like a cat like these examples below:

Whenever I'm alone in the library or I really want to study and focus, I go straight to the first table "Loners' area" (that's what I call it HAHA) by the General Reference area because that's where I feel most comfortable at and focused that I wanna call it my territory and I feel bad whenever that seat is taken. If I am  by the Circulation area, I awkwardly roam around and 'sense that strange, focus-booster area' before I take a seat. Weird, right?

Oh and this picture below:

I have actually done this. Well, I usually do when I was a kid. Whenever my sister's package arrives, I get inside the box after we empty it and I "lock" my cats with me inside the box. Package boxes are big and I fit in to it and we actually sleep in it, me and my cats. Oh well, just reminiscing.

When I become an architect I want a weird room in my house where all memorabilia are in it. It will be something I would feel very comfortable in. I will also be putting narrow, comfortable (for me) spaces at certain points in my house because it is, of course, mine. :)

The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets, the prettiest eyes have cried the most tears and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.

Just because I proclaim that it's my birthday ibig that doesn't mean maghahanda ako/whatsoever.

 It's just that masaya lang to celebrate a day which you can call yours. Masaya lang yung thought na ito yung araw na pinanganak ka, araw mo ito, and you feel that inner joy; and nag ce-celebrate ka from the heart - something like a random blissful feeling.
It's just like any normal day but with extra smiles on everyone's faces. Hopefully :))