The second term of my college sophomore year

Every plan I design gets complimented for having good space analysis. I must say that even though I'm a slow drafter, it is because I plan carefully what I design. I cannot pass a plate with a roughly-planned design; even though others don't see it well enough because I ruin almost every plate I pass.

I enjoy every single second of planning, conceptualizing, but because of the school schedule I had to draft and plan in the evening --which is sleeping time, and I find it hard not to sleep while doing plates/other schoolworks - thus making sleeping my downfall in everything I do.

I feel so sad that I always tend to conceptualize everything when it gets near the deadline, then I have to cram-draft, then design is not the only course I have. I can't cram-draft and achieve wonderful results. My good plans aren't visualized properly. </3

Noise in the Undisturbed Paradise

An online essay in our Philippine History of Architecture course. (2nd year, 2nd term)

With their calamity-prone area, the Ivatans could've moved out to another island or place, but maybe they were also mesmerized at Batanes Group of Islands, or maybe Batanes is the only place they could call "home", that is why instead of finding another location, they just coped up with the acts of nature occurring on the location. These people observed and became self-aware of the usual route of the winds/ storms, they know what side are mostly hit by the winds so they made that part of their walls sturdier and disaster-proof. Ivatans don't exactly do trial-and-error, I don't think it's the right term to use; but when their built-structure collapses and they found the problem, they are going to improve their buildings. 

They also make their buildings sustainable and last for decades even without advanced technology. They did not need any Math, Science--Chemistry and Physics to calculate the composition of the soil, the lime, stone if it is sturdy enough to last for years but they were able to make it last. Here in Metro Manila, we have the technology and millions of people residing but whenever little rain pours down, there are flood in the area, and then houses are also flooded. During the storm we panic and worry, it's because we know our roofs will be taken away by the wind, our floor will be flooded, or worse, for those who live by the riverside, the whole house will slide down with the land. That's illogical. Well, actually I said "Oo nga noh?" when my professor asked us why Filipinos aren't used to disasters, that if there are constant floods, why do we still keep our ground floor at the same level as before. We didn't think about changing lifestyles because there's nobody giving us such thought until now.

Here's a quote by Spencer Kimball: "Preparedness, when properly pursued, is a way of life, not a sudden, spectacular program." It is already a way of life of the Ivatans even before the country gained freedom over our invaders while we're still struggling every time a rain pours down. Yes, our drainage canals are busted, our flood control needs more budget to work properly, but as of now, we should at least level our floor areas to where flood cannot enter houses and establishments. Manila, Philippines is not just flood-prone, but also fire-prone because of the building materials used and the things placed inside; therefore we should already cope up and build disaster-resilient structures.

Kayvayvanaan is the Ivatans' bayanihan. I don't think they even need money to buy materials for building because in helping one another, they will contribute their own resources and build together. It's cheap, yet durable. Also, the knowledge of house-building is shared to everyone, including the young citizens of Batanes so they can continue the tradition up to the future. Their children are also aware that their houses are built durably so they know that they should just follow the footsteps of their elderly and not dare create buildings that are seen in Metro Manila. We all know that climate change is making the future calamities worse, therefore Ivatans should just continue reinventing and building their structures typhoon-proof that even the Super Typhoons will just be noise in their undisturbed houses, leaving pure paradise after the rain.

Things I want to do

Be a voice actress
Tour around Harajuku District before I turn 23
Live in the same subdivision with my friends
Change the Philippine slums

For all those whom I personally drive away.

Don't assume that you have a space in my life when during the times I needed help, you didn't even try to help and even when I actually asked, you pretend you did not hear or even get angry that I'm disturbing you. Well then, do not disturb me and my peace. You're not a part of my life, and I don't want you to be.

It's weird that there are a lot of significant people to me that celebrates their birthday today. :-/ I feel weird every October 9.

Here are the birthday celebrants this October 9 :

1. My best friend in Elementary
2. My Mathematics mentor/coach/teacher in High School
3. My ex-crush when I was in 3rd year HS
4. My brother-in-law
5. My only guy friend here in our subdivision, and a high school classmate of my elementary classmates

I just knew number 5 last May, and I just knew my brother-in-law's birthday a week ago. O.o
Other than these people, the most expensive cellphone I had was lost last October 9, 2008. :( That cellphone contained my Grade 5 & 6 memories :'( </3

Today is also the last day of our "term break", tomorrow is the start of our Second Term (yeah, Thursday, weird right? T_T)

And then I just recently found out that today is Octopus day. Well yeah maybe you find it shallow but for me it's an issue XD I hate squids! Today being an octopus day is reminding me of squids -_- XDDDD

So yeah, October 9 is dang significant to me. So weird!

I feel like crying as the rain pours harder. It's like an acid rain falling heavily onto my heart T_T

Philippines is once again facing a calamity because of "Habagat". Heavy rains and terrible floods are devastating the whole country. A lot of people and animals are suffering because of this.

I'm now on my Second year First term (Mapua Institute of Technology-Intramuros has four terms rather than two semesters) and I still don't have my own style in designing yet. Maybe because we still haven't tackled Filipino architecture; which I should practice as a Filipina.

I sleep on the couch because I love watching my mother sleeping.

Yeah, it's like we camp in our living room. There might be ghosts living in our rooms already because we really don't "live" in there. Since I rarely visit home, I make an opportunity to prolong my time with her by sleeping near her.

Most of the time, (like 99% of the time), I sleep later than her. Just like now as I am typing these words. I can see her wrap herself in blanket, then cover her face, then go sideways-left and right-. I know that those sleeping positions are also my habits, I find it great to know to whom I have inherited such, and that these added to the list of what we have in common.

I really like wondering about the lives of the ancient people/tribes/Middle Ages and point out the scarcity of what school have taught us about them.

They sounded all-grand or all-simple, but it's a mixture of the two. That is why I like watching movies that depict lives of such kind of things; I am able to have an idea about how they live far better than what I have learned from school & books.

It's just that, they lived better: in terms of resourcefulness, perseverance and strength; and worse: in terms of unsanitary, uneducated, and extremely simple life. There are simple people who care about value, and there are those people who merely lives in greed. In that perspective, what was before and what is current are the same. Just modernistic, cleaner, educated---well, for most of us, but extremely not for the unfortunate. The surroundings and way of life may have changed, but the status and problem of every place of every era haven't.

I want this to happen SO BADLY.

All I ever wanted is to have my friends living with me in the same subdivision. To hang out at each others' houses, at any time we want without us having the trouble of going home late and commuting. We can stroll around until night time, and even see each others' faces while waking up. I have never experienced that, and I want it so bad. I know it'll be the best thing that has ever happened to me if I can get it.

Journey on a Paperboat

This is my book report of The Fountainhead for our Theory of Architecture. I just wanted to share this because I wanted to show how much I love this book, and will be such a waste of efforts not letting it be shared. You will meet me and so are the characters seen through my perspective. I wasn't able to finish reading the whole story earlier though, it was due 1:30 and I stopped at page 523 after unloading from the bus by 11:20am. I haven't done my book report then and I have to submit a something of 3000 words or else I'll be doomed. I wanted my book report to be the treasure and testimony of my love for this book but I wasn't able to show it through what I have passed - because I lacked time and I just hustled. But all I've written were from my heart, I will finish reading the book and I will read it over and over again, with utmost care to the book (I am very sensitive with my books, I don't want to fold it or let it have wrinkles whatsoever)

So with my no-format paper, no references, no footnotes paper all because of I isolated myself from the internet in order to try finish reading from page 100-the end (which is more than 600) in one day, I had 75/100 grade. Others who used the internet, read other people's testimonies, influenced, and copied the works, had higher grade. I'm not upset or anything, I am just stating the fact. If it did not mean anything to me, I would do the same. But I love this book so I wrote will all my heart. This is MY book report, I'm not advertising the book whatsoever. I reported what I felt, what I reacted, and how it influenced me.

And so here it is: Of course, this is a hustled composition, I wanted to do better, but this is what I have done from 12-1:30 pm earlier (4/5ths of it. 20% of it I started this morning, but then I realized I cannot make it and that I'm not yet finished reading. So I continued reading at the bus and did the composition the moment I arrived in my dormitory. It's not something admirable. It shouldn't be done.

I'm a royal prisoner, trapped in a golden city. (A diary for our History of Architecture -Asia- subject)

Other people say it's majestic, the center of the universe, and that I'm fortunate enough to be the emperor's daughter living in fortune - but I want to be out of here. This is a vast, lonely place. All I see are walls, houses of same designs, and same people over and over again! Every single day it gets more boring. It saddens me. I can only entertain myself by watching children play, hear their laughs and sometimes teach them lessons for them to learn. Sometimes I stroll around the inner court and take a look at Baba's palace and wonder how he's doing. His palace is the grandest here in the inner court, and of course the most beautiful. There are even guards all over to secure his safety. I'm scared of them; they make me feel like I need to make an appointment just to see my own father. Second to the largest palaces is where I live in, with Mama and my siblings. Visitors (some high rank officials that are invited or welcome in our abode), would look at the palaces in awe. They would smile at us, and complement how beautiful our place is. I don't really get it, or maybe I got used to this place so much since this is the only place I have ever seen since birth. Even if I'm the only daughter, Baba seems to favor my brothers more, there are even times that I feel left out and doubt if I really am a part of this "Royal Family". I loathe the fact that I was born a girl. Why did the Gods of heaven bothered to make me a woman when all my father wanted was to have a son?

I myself have never been in the outer court. It's prohibited for me to go there. They say that the outer court is for official businesses, something like that. But I've heard that the inner court is a reflection, in terms of symmetry, of the outer court. Though the latter is bigger, and that many people gather there for ceremonial occasions and Baba's proclamations. I think it looks better than this place, but at the same time evil. Even with the vast area of this city, there are times that I could actually hear harrowing screams from the outer court, insinuating that someone might have been given severe punishment (which might have been death). I've been hearing noises like that since I was a child. Whenever I think of the outer court, I imagine it full of bloodshed, or that eunuchs spend their time cleaning the 'dirt' after every execution - so that the city would still look presentable to others who do not know our dark secret.

Eunuchs were the only ones who could tell me what the outside looks like during our private brief conversations. Soil is said to be abundant unlike in this city where it's full of man-made ground. There are also huge rivers, different kinds of animals mingling with one another - a lot of which I have never seen nor heard before; some I have seen in paintings. People of different status interact with each other, very much interested in knowing the people within these walls; they do not know how lucky they are free outside than live forever in isolation and full of do's and don'ts. I envy the dragons I see on almost every corner of this place; how exciting it is to be able to fly, to be in charge of where you are going. What happy free mythical creatures they are. I always daydream being taken away by a dragon, and bring me to a place where my fellow men will not be able to find me. All I want to do is have a taste of freedom: take a bath on a river, enjoy the sweet taste of freshwater together with the fishes jumping out of the water; pick a fresh fruit from a tree, touch real-life flowers instead of flowery wall decorations, sit on a grass, and have a butterfly tickle my nose. Isn't that too much to ask?

I'm able to survive while hanging on the cliff. Being able to see the ground but still striving to reach the top.

Plant a seed, water it daily and take care of it; not just await for its bloom.

Because taking care of something is the process to have its final result. Yes you have enrolled in a prestigious school, but did you take care of your studies? Did you do your utmost best to prove you are worthy of graduating? You know your answer.

Any investment would be nothing if you do not work for it, you may either end up just a graduate or a Summa cum laude. Every day you are given a chance to change, don't waste it. Improve, improve, improve. Your abilities can improve and so do you if you just work hard and practice for it. Have the eagerness to learn and be smart to PREVENT challenges as much as possible. You will also save time and there will be no wasted work or half-finished work; all of your BEST can be achieved. Think of what you are currently doing and project what will happen tomorrow because of your deeds.  You know you have your dreams. Just be disciplined to work hard for it.

Malaya na nga ba tayo?

Hindi ba't mas masama ngayong ang kapwa Pilipino na ang nanlalamang at umaabuso sa kapwa nya Pilipino?

*coughs* Politics..Government..everybody else

Maiba lang sa mga masasayang greetings na nagkalat ngayong araw na ito. Kailangan nating mamulat sa katotohanan ng ating bansa sa kabila ng pansamantalang kasiyahang dulot ng internet. Masaya tayo ngayon sa ating pansariling mga dahilan, pero hindi masayang hindi umaasenso ang bawat isa sa atin. Alalahanin naman natin ang pinakamahihirap nating mga kababayan habang tinatamasa ngayon ang ARAW NG KALAYAAN.

Enjoy...

Bakit nga ba inimbento ang LOTTO kung pwede namang ibigay sa GNP ng Pilipinas ang perang nakukuha nito? Ang laking tulong nun SA LAHAT!

Imbes na isang tao lamang ang makikinabang ng napakalaking halagang napapalanunan sa LOTTO, ang pinaghati-hating premyo na iyon ay makakabuhay na ng maraming pamilya sa araw-araw: pang kain, pang tustos sa pag-aaral, pampagamot at pambayad sa mga monthly bills.

___________________"KAILANGAN NG PERA PARA MABUHAY!!!!"__________________

Ang hirap kasi, CHAIN REACTION ang problema ng Pilipinas. Overpopulation, Kahirapan, Illiteracy/ Hindi makapag tapos ng pag-aaral, Unemployment rate, Malnutrition, Maduming Paligid, Pollution. Madali lang sana ang sagot dyan: DISCIPLINE and COOPERATION. Ang problema sa sarili nga natin hindi maimplement yan, sa buong sambayanan pa kaya?

Minsan I frustrate myself with these thoughts. How can my country surpass all these problems if we ourselves do not help ourselves?

Belated post for May 23.

**I just edited the post to move it to May 23, heheheh* :3

So my friends decided to make a video gift for my 17th birthday, they started their plan from the start of the fourth term (last week of April-first week of May), right after a birthday of one of our blockmates. They acted out as if they were giving a birthday gift to that friend so even I was able to greet myself "Happy birthday", XD How weird was that?

I just wanted to blog this to thank all those who took part in this video, I really snapshot the whole video to capture all of you, my architecture batchmates and friends, and Royce *the only one who's not an Archi student and was part of this video, HAHA. It was a week after my birthday when I decided to re-watch the video again and made this collage, but I find myself being very annoying already to post something about an occasion that was already a week ago so I did not upload it on facebook. Anyway, I was browsing through my files earlier and thought it's such a waste not to post this so here it is:

THANK YOU THANK YOU GUYS!!!! :**

Sit just like L

Sometimes I feel comfortable sitting L-style. I did this earlier in the Architecture Library since it was just the two of us there (me my my friend) and my friend exclaimed: "You really are a cat!"

 oooh, so L and cats have the same style of sitting!!




O.o ???

(DISCLAIMER) Photos belong to their owners. I just found them in the net. LALALA~

Sadomasochist.

I just love hearing raindrops touching the ground, like the rain finally gave up and gave his all to the earth, or a sorrowful kiss from someone who cannot be loved back. The rain submitted to the earth, with the earth the only one who's benefiting from the rain's sorrow - she felt calm and purified through the tears that is cleaning her profoundly. I can feel sorrow pouring down the earth, but with calmness and a sense of beauty oozing from her.

Being lucky goes with my name, I guess?

I just found out that my first name, Beatrice means "Bringer of Joy"/ "She who Blesses"/ "Voyager (through life)"/ "Blessed" ; Ann means "He (God) has favored me".

I always feel that way. It's like there are coincidences all the time, they're pretty awesome and always never fail to surprise me.

Just three of my previous most memorable coincidences yet are:

1. My sister bought a random CD entitled "The Family Man". I was surprised that one of the buildings there is the Seagram building by Mies Van de Rohe and Philip Johnson (a building w/c I knew and find to be very nice & beautiful)  and later in the movie I found out that the main character is an architect. Of all professions, right? It's a movie, and I seldom know movies w/c have an architect as its lead role, well actually this might've been my first time encountering one. Anyway, those two points about that movie are just bonuses. Great bonuses, indeed. What stood out in this movie is that it made me realize something about what I should think about for the future. And know I still keep such things in mind. I'll just keep it to myself though. It might need a separate blog. HAHA The story was about a guy who chose career over having a family, just a hint. - I just thought very deeply about that.
2. Just yesterday, on my way home, this bus I rode was playing this "Journey to West: Conquering the Demons". I wasn't interested at first but then Shu Qi was in it! An actress I have watched in two other films "So Close" and "Transporter" - also watched in the buses I have rode (Free movies in the bus, yaay) Yes, if I find the movie I have watched in the bus interesting, I google it at home/dorm. Also, it was about Buddhism and it just made me realize the deep faith, and that you truly would not attain enlightenment without severe sacrifice and I find it hard to believe in something that doesn't seem to exist - there's pride and fear at the same time, that gives you "blurred faith"/ you are not fully committed to the Lord, stuffs like that. And since it was Buddhism, and I'm currently studying Asian architecture, it made me become more interested in them and it just makes me want to study everything about Buddhism, and other religionsSSSS. *Ain't nobody got time for that! XD*
3. Earlier, 500 Days of Summer was the movie in the television. I wanted to watch it because Zooey Deschanel was there. But then, to my surprise, the main character (the guy) has studied architecture and later in the story he tried to pursue it... AGAIN! Of all professions, right? Also, the 500th day in the movie is May Twenty-third, my birthday! I was like:
   
   Of all the 365 days of the year??
   
   
   
   
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   The persons I meet individually in college is surprisingly connected to another person I have met in not just a simple way. The first coincidence ever is that my previous roommate's classmates in MathPlus is actually my bloc mates and my classmates in MathPlus is her bloc mates! It's like exchange gifts! And then this group of senpais I know, some of them were my classmates, two of them helped that class of ours, the other one I personally met, and the other one I become close online -- it was just recently that I found out that they were pals/"nakama"!! And many other people, I'm not that surprised with my Architecture batch mates though, because *of course* everyone started out as bloc-sections so it wouldn't be very surprising (it's considered a "simple way"). Anyway,..
   
   
   Such coincidences are just plain awesomeness, right? Or maybe I just love noticing such good stuffs, because they're GOOD~ God never fails to give me something I would treasure for my lifetime. Whether it was bad at first, later it will reveal itself as a blessing in disguise. If you always look at that way, you would feel blessed and very rich. Just like my name ;) Strive to look at the bright side, or you yourself should turn it up and make the odds be on your favor.

Even Vitruvius apologizes for any grammatical errors in his book because he wrote that book as an ARCHITECT, not a grammarian whatsoever. Nobody's perfect. All of us don't master EVERYTHING.

This might be copyright infringement, please do tell me because I will delete the picture if I must. I'm just lazy to type that, so I just screenshot.
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Just wanna share
I woke up at 4:37 a.m. as far as I can remember what I saw on the clock, so I read my copy the pdf file of that book. Now that it's just two hours before my first class today, I feel sleepy again. -_-

Darn body, why are you waking me up when I lack sleep? >.< I know I haven't completed 8 hours and then it automatically wakes me up and not making me go back to sleep?!?! ughhhhhhh

Just complaining. At least I gained knowledge ...somehow ;D

I am accident prone.

Either I'm the careless one or there's a careless person (or people) around me.
I cannot already count how many times I almost get hit by vehicles. I've been hit by basketball balls but I'm too numb to care or get hurt about that XD

• I always tend to bump and fell things almost everyday. Or every class, or stuffs I have. It's a nuisance for everyone affected by my "accidents" and I'm sick of it, yet clumsiness never leaves me -_-
• I'm careless, a lot of times, I thought I was over being like that. Yet I still am.
• I was careless with Math. During competitions, I know how to solve it yet there's some stupid arithmetic carelessness sometimes. I can say that it happens a lot, it IS my downfall, but it's not like it's "every time". "Occassionally", I guess? :P

Here's the reason why I actually made this blog right now:

Earlier, right after lunch, a person on a bicycle carelessly drove that almost hit a car, moved to his right, and almost hit me. Then just minutes ago, a motorcycle and a taxi almost hit each other on a junction, they had such possibility to have an accident and I was almost in front of that motor (I was by the sidewalk~! Some vehicles park there so I feel safe; vehicles cannot drive literally beside the sidewalk, right? And I was walking right there, so I should not be hit by them. Unless they're drunk though :/)

Yes, I really made an illustration because it's hard to explain without visualizing it.

Okay, lesson learned: Just stay at the sidewalk. That is still a road and you might get hit.

But the street of our dorm actually don't have any concrete sidewalks. I consider the side of the road being the "sidewalk", so as other humans walking by that street. :P

I guess I really just have to be careful, more cautious; if there will be an accident, I must learn how to dodge/get away from it to avoid being involve to such.

I don't want to die because of an accident. (Well, also from severe illness) Let's all stop being careless so that we won't hurt ourselves or worse, other people around you.

Afterlife.

There's another post somewhere, it's something like this, but it's about an invention that your ashes (or urn?) will be turned into coral reefs. I kind of like it. Just don't blow up the ocean, people!

I want to live underwater in my next life, because it is currently impossible. At least leave my remains underwater where I can be a shelter for the next generations of marine life. You know, once an architect and shelter-maker on the land while still alive, became a shelter underwater afterlife :))

It's like living the best of both worlds.. Once again, don't blow up the ocean for me, please :)

Me? Crying??

I'm someone who finds it hard to cry. I never cried at my dad's funeral nor his burial. Take note of that. The only instance I cried for him is when my mom woke me up to tell me that daddy is dying.

Maybe that concludes that I get over stuffs quite easily. Or maybe I had too much of dramas (stories/series/movies) and over-analyzing stuffs/emotions that I now know and understand that stuffs like that could happen; and I have seen many kinds of reactions from many kinds of stuffs that I just imagine those reactions in my mind and crying will not happen. Or it's really just that I over analyze stuffs that is why my own emotions get obliterated or confused, I don't know.

Once again I'm over analyzing. Bottomline is: It's hard for me to cry. I can't even act with tears and it is frustrating me!! So if I cry, it's truly something deep. (1. Anger/ 2. Melancholy) [I easily cry when I'm angry though, so I always end up like a loser in an argument.] Well, dramas are an exception to that. I have learned quite recently to be easily affected/touched by dramas. But I consider dramas something I intake deeply. Girls. :P

The posts in this blog serves as my bookmarks in life, highlighting what I want in the future, and what I have learned about myself.

Maybe I really am not suited to watch in cinemas [alone?]

I've been spending these past few days watching movies in my laptop, and I just realized right now how much I enjoy it by myself. By myself I'm free to express my feelings -- aloud, Operatic (Imagine Ouran Host Club's Lo be lia~~ chant.That's what I mean.), Fan-girl screams, laugh, trashtalk, love-love-love, CRY or be in tears. I easily feel uneasy when other people (public/ those who aren't my friends) have the chance to see my reactions/feelings, I dunno why, I don't have "stage frights" whatsoever, I can handle being a presenter, but maybe I'm just brought up like that. Even answering phone calls in public I would sound robotic (w/o emotions). I feel uneasy expressing myself in front of others. I cannot imagine myself being in a cinema. I might just be a ball of emotionless BEAtch in there.

But also, maybe it might also be just a part of growing up with only me and my mom. I grew up being an introvert at home. My happiness at home is being alone after a tiring day of being extrovert at school (This makes me an omnivert - both extro and intro). It was like in our home I am charging my energy for the next day.

Another thing, I'm the kind of person who loves ending credits so much. In that long black credits I have the time to appreciate the movie more; with the background music, the movie flashes back to me - it's like the most precious moment to me. Also with the credits we could see how many participated in creating the movie and you just want to thank them all with the bottom of your heart, even if you don't know them x) The thing I'm looking out for the most in movies is the music titles - if I want their music. Some I have already found in Youtube, some I just love reading in the Credits, along with the other stuffs. I don't think I'd be able to do that in cinemas. Right after "The End" people starts leaving and it's peer pressure that will force you to leave along with them.

I think I won't reach the kind of fulfillment I feel when I watch at home versus watching in cinemas. At home the screen is mine and mine alone. I can even playback the scene whenever I want to and it's for free. I can eat BUFFET, take breaks, dance with the upbeat scene, sing as loud as I can and I don't even have to pay for transportation 'coz I'm just in my humble abode! My cats can also have the privilege to watch. It's the best at home. I appreciate the movie more because I waited for years. I don't buy pirated cd's, it's  a waste of space in my CD cabinet. If there's a CD/DVD I would buy it if I want to --if I can't watch it online. But maybe someday I would watch in a cinema, even for once. Not now though, because I swear to keep my oath to remain "Never been to cinemas" until I graduate. It'll be a great achievement you know :3

Being involved in the society is an obligation.

It's funny how cute faces get more attention than world problems.

Watch documentaries or shows in GMA NewsTV. Listen to people (informal settlers) and think of ways your profession could help them. They are part of this society, most probably the ones at the bottom. If we help to stop their problems, they will stop being a burden to the society; instead of making this country rotten from the inside.

Our country will progress if we lift each other up and achieve individual growth.

Meet my favorite place at home.

That's a drawing for day 4 of 30-Day Drawing Challenge entitled "Favorite Place". That's a part of my room and it's quite a narrow spot where I feel comfortable sitting on. Well, I feel comfortable at any narrow, small spaces like a corner of a room, innermost end of a passenger seat or car or bus (by the window) and everyone are squeezing me in, and most especially, under a table. It's like a mini humble abode with the table cloth being a nice roof and I imagine myself like a cat like these examples below:

Whenever I'm alone in the library or I really want to study and focus, I go straight to the first table "Loners' area" (that's what I call it HAHA) by the General Reference area because that's where I feel most comfortable at and focused that I wanna call it my territory and I feel bad whenever that seat is taken. If I am  by the Circulation area, I awkwardly roam around and 'sense that strange, focus-booster area' before I take a seat. Weird, right?

Oh and this picture below:

I have actually done this. Well, I usually do when I was a kid. Whenever my sister's package arrives, I get inside the box after we empty it and I "lock" my cats with me inside the box. Package boxes are big and I fit in to it and we actually sleep in it, me and my cats. Oh well, just reminiscing.

When I become an architect I want a weird room in my house where all memorabilia are in it. It will be something I would feel very comfortable in. I will also be putting narrow, comfortable (for me) spaces at certain points in my house because it is, of course, mine. :)

The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets, the prettiest eyes have cried the most tears and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.

Just because I proclaim that it's my birthday ibig that doesn't mean maghahanda ako/whatsoever.

 It's just that masaya lang to celebrate a day which you can call yours. Masaya lang yung thought na ito yung araw na pinanganak ka, araw mo ito, and you feel that inner joy; and nag ce-celebrate ka from the heart - something like a random blissful feeling.
It's just like any normal day but with extra smiles on everyone's faces. Hopefully :))

Na-f-frustrate ako.

Naf-frustrate ako dahil dyan sa Amaia Scapes na yan na sobrang ganda ng subdivision kaso ang kaharap, just a thin kalsada away, ay rural-like area. Parang pang-asar lang. Parang sa pang araw-araw ibina-balandra ng mga nakatira don ang yaman nila habang yung mga tao sa harap nila lagi lang nakikita sa harap nila yang magandang subdivision na yan. .."TADAA" That was so frustrating since last year so nasanay na rin ako ngayon. Ang kaso, ngayon naman parang 10 meters away lang, may ginawa silang panibagong gate / passageway papuntang Amaia Scapes ehh dati yung parking lot ng katabi nitong Elementary School. ABA! Saan na mag p-park ang mga kailangang mag park tuwing events ng school? Not to mention pwede silang pasukin na lang ng mga bata or akyat-bahay kahit sabihin pa nating may guard dun! May possibility ring masayang yung passageway na iyon pero, sana na lang talaga binakuran na lang nila nang mataas para walang ganitong issue akong iniisip/nafo-formulate.

Naf-frustrate rin ako sa Sentosa. Maganda rin syang subdivision and oo, ang ganda ng 'frontispiece' nilang Merlion and landscaping ng malaking "SENTOSA" ang problema, wala akong nakikitang coherence nito sa loob ng subdivision. It's like, maganda sa harap pero patay sa loob. Puro bahay lang. Well, duh, subdivision sya so talagang puro bahay pero, sana may silbi yung Merlion sa harap noh? Sana may connection dun sa design nung mga bahay or may mga landscaping rin na bongga sa loob..Basta nakakaasar lang. Naaasar akong laging nakikita yun saka yung Amaia. XD

Naf-frustrate rin ako sa majority ng mga subdivisions. Kasama na yung amin, kasama na yung mga subdivisions na lagi kong nadadaanan. Oo maganda yung designs, maraming bahay na pwedeng tirahan, ang problema may bibili ba? Afford ba? Sana oo. Habang yung mga tao nagsisiksikan sa may tabi ng riles, gilid ng ilog, tabi ng kalsada, compound, etong mga subdivisions na ito ang lalawak ng free space and mga bakanteng bahay sana nakatira na doon ang majority ng mga Pilipino. Habang yung iba (gobyerno) nag iisip ng relocation, demolition ng mga illegal na nakatayong bahay nang walang mapaglilipatan; habang yung iba nag s-suggest na hayaan na sila don, palitan na lang yung bahay and pataasin ang quality nito para durable sa sakuna; itong mga subdivisions nakanta lang ng ♫ Right here waiting for you ♫.

Naaasar rin ako sa mga walang disiplinang mga motorista na pinaalala sa akin nung tricycle driver na kasunod ng tricycle namin kahapon. Nakita ko pa yung cute na pusang tumatawid nang mapayapa/leisurely tapos biglang yung sumunod na tricycle sa amin, nasagasaan sya T___T Imposibleng di nya nakita yon! Nakakaasar talaga di ko alam kung kumusta yung pusa kasi dere-deretso yung tricycle na sinasakyan namin T_T Mula noon, napansin kong hindi mababago ang mga ugali ng karamihan sa mga tao. Maging pulitiko man yan, o mamamayan lamang. Nang dahil sa internet nalaman nating may mga hampas-lupang mga tao na grabe mang abuso ng mga walang laban na mga hayop. Hindi na nadala sa pagsira sa kalikasan para sa sariling kapakanan. Kung ganito man lang din ang sitwasyon, paano natin maaangat ang isa't-isa kung may mga nagpapabigat at di naman tumutulong / tulungan ang sarili sa pag-unlad?

Nakakainis rin dahil majority ng mga kabataan ngayon ay engulfed na ng leisure at modern technology na wala na silang pakialam sa mga social issues/world problems/kung ano mang dapat sila ay maging parte o di kaya'y hindi maging pabigat o sumama pa sa problemang yoon. Gusto ko rin namang sisihin yung mga naunang henerasyon sa atin. Sila ang gumawa ng mga Iphone, PSP, android phones, at sila rin ang nagpalaki sa atin. Ang kanilang pagiging iresponsable ay nag resulta sa mga masyadong maluhong kabataan, tamad, walang pagkukusa, at walang pakialam sa mundong kanilang kinabibilangan.

Nakakainis pang sa ngayon ay wala pa akong magawa para rito at kailangan ko pang maghintay ng ilang taon para magkaroon ng maraming kaalaman dahil sa wala ako ngayong nakikitang tao na nagsusulong ng pagbabago, tila lahat na lang (ng politiko) ay mahirap nang pagkatiwalaan. Yung tipong gusto mo nang gumawa nang paraan ngayon kaso incapable ka pa at hindi pa adequate ang iyong kaalaman upang makagawa ng paraan sa mga problemang ito. Yung tipong baka kung kelan nakapagtapos ka na ay huli na ang lahat para sa pagbabago kasi nabulok na ang lahat? At yung tipong hindi ko naman talaga dapat pinoproblema ang lahat nang ito kaso bilang isang mamamayan ng mundong ganito ay naiinis talaga ako. Ako'y tila nakatali at naka-busal na gustong sumigaw pero walang magawa.

Na-f-frustrate ako lalo na kanina nang naghihintay lamang kaming mapuno yung jeep dahil puro ganito yung iniisip ko. Yung hindi ko magawang maging masaya dahil sa mga tulad nito na tila dapat hindi naman talaga ako damay sa ganitong sitwasyon pero nag-aalab pa rin ang inis ko? Kung hindi ko lang mahal ang sarili ko pwede na akong magpakamatay sa sobrang seryoso ng inis at loss of faith ko sa humanity (like "I don't wanna live in this world anymore" na peg). Nakaka-frustrate, nakaka-frustrate, nakaka-frustrate.

Isa pang nakaka-frustrate. Matiyaga lamang ang magbabasa nito eh. Yung mga dapat patamaan nito ay tinignan lamang yung kabuuan tapos nag-give up agad, parang mga judgemental na tao na facade pa lang ng tao ang nakikita, nang-husga agad; para ring mga taong mabilis mag give up sa problema dahil hindi nila inisip kung anong magiging tulong nito sa kanilang pag-grow bilang indibidwal, hindi man lang tinignan ang thought at esensya ng bagay na iyon. So kung ikaw, binabasa mo ito, THANK YOU sa pagbibigay oras sa aking napakahabang blog and SALUDO AKO sa tiyaga mo. Ibang klaseng tao ka :)

P.S. sa lahat ng mga nabanggit ko rito: Patawad ngunit opinyon ko lamang ito. Minsan ko lamang ilabas kung ano ang hinanakit ko sa mundo, pagbigyan nyo na ako. I might say that this is nothing but pure critique, not paninirang-puri; not a criticism in a way that nakakabulok ng dignidad kundi maaaring susi ng pagbabago kung titignan nyo lang kung ano ang mga pagkukulang/pagkakamali ninyo. "Nothing is permanent but CHANGE" ika nga.

TATSULOK - a 2-minute Talumpati in Fil10 (3rd term 2012-2013 Mapua Institute of Technology) EXTENDED

Noong nakaraang linggo, tayo'y ipinakinig ni Binibining Tayag ng mga tugtugin at unang-una na rito ang Tatsulok. Lumang kanta na ito ngunit, noon ko lamang napagtanto kung ano ang nais nitong ipahiwatig.

Napakaraya ng mundo, ano? Napakaraya nito lalung-lalo na sa mahihirap. Puro pera na lamang ang katapat ng lahat! Ang mayayaman, konting alitan lang, ay magbabayad na lamang sa kanilang abugado at madadaan na ito sa korte. Kaysa mas pagtuunan ng pansin ang mas makabuluhang mga kaso ay sisingit pa ang mga kasong tulad non! Eh ang mahihirap? Pag sila nanakawan, nasira ang dignidad, napaslang ang mahal sa buhay, may ipangbabayad ba sila upang makamit ang hustisya? Kahit sabihin pa nating demokrasya ang ating bansa ay hindi parin tayo pantay-pantay bilang mga mamamayan! Lagi na lang mayayaman ang nakakakuha ng lahat ng gusto nila habang ang mahihirap ay hindi pa rin umuusad sa kanilang kalagayan.

Napaisip ako. Ang kapwa ko ba mga kamag-aral ay napapaisip na nang ganito? May malasakit rin ba sila sa ating kapwa o tila nabubuhay na lamang sila sa pang-araw-araw nang hindi tumitingin sa kanilang kapaligiran? Sa kanila bang paglaki ay may gagawin sila upang baligtarin ang tatsulok at mapanatili ang pagkakapantay-pantay ng lahat? Hindi ba't ang pangit namang tignan na tayo'y nakapagtapos ng pag-aaral, umasenso, nang di man lang tayo tutulong sa ating kapwa habang may potensyal naman tayo? Sana, sa ating pagbangon sa araw-araw, ay bumangon tayo nang may layuning maging parte ng pagbabago para sa kabutihan ng ating kinabukasan. Kaya't tayo na't maging mapagmalasakit, at mapagmahal sa ating bayan.

Guggenheim Museum in New York by Frank Lloyd Wright

1. His inverted ziggurat (a stepped or winding pyramidal temple of Babylonian origin) dispensed with the conventional approach to museum design, which led visitors through a series of interconnected rooms and forced them to retrace their steps when exiting. Instead, Wright whisked people to the top of the building via elevator, and led them downward at a leisurely pace on the gentle slope of a continuous ramp. The galleries were divided like the membranes in citrus fruit, with self-contained yet interdependent sections.

2. This spiral serves not only for design purposes but also as a natural guide for visitors. It is one of the few museums I can honestly say that I have never been lost in. The design allows the viewer to easily interact with the work, without having to think where to walk or ask themselves, “Have I been in this room already?”

copyright: http://www.guggenheim.org/new-york/about/frank-lloyd-wright-building and http://theeyethatwrites.blogspot.com/2012/03/normal_26.html

Because of this I just realized the cool part of being an architect. :))

You hold the power of what the building would look like. You can create not just mere quadrilateral type, but even complex labyrinth or maze-like --anything within your vast imagination. As long as you have the will to COMPUTE and apply the laws of Physics, Calculus, etc etc, you can come up with something like Wright's Guggenheim Museum; or Frank Gehry's or Calatrava and -put other cool architects and their styles here-

I hope one day I would be able to create something like this. ..or weirder :))

Venetian Resort Hotel Casino - Modern Classical

A modern hotel/resort/casino inspired by Classical stuffs. Siguro ganito rin ka-grand ang mga lumang buildings nung panahon nila kasi ngayon diba nawala na yung "kintab" nila and you can see their (beautiful) deterioration caused by time? I love the old-esque-chuvaness ng mga old structures/buildings because you can feel mystique and history na tila nakapanuot sa bawat millimeter ng mga nakikita/nadadaanan mong structure/building.

Mala-chimera ang peg oh XD
Tapos may matataba pang columns na hindi Classical Greek Order, I dunno what that is.
With ogee arches (yung mukhang onion) tapos Drop arch sa ibaba. (Nakikita ko yung pagka point eh, mukhang drop arch)


I wanna go here XDDD So beautiful. asdfghjkl kaso may casino. Oh well XD

Mga nakikita ko sa Google Images. Not sure whether part pa ito ng Venetian Resort Hotel Casino kasi parang lumayo yung itsura ohh, basta I was ♥ ♥ ♥ with the escalator. Ewan ko, basta fascinated ako sa mga magagandang hagdanan (though escalator yan, and I'd appreciate that more if hagdanan yan) xD


Venice in Las Vegas nga (if this is still Venetian Resort Hotel Casino, tinatamad na ako mag search to verify XDD :P) May quoins pa ohh and again that Ogee arch, tapos ..basket handle arch ba yun? tapos mga round arches, asdfghjkl adik sa arch? (ako o yung gumawa nito, kayo humusga) XD and there's some tracery windows on the right and a ...what do you call it if tatlo silang ..."coupled window"? :)) And ooh hi DENTILS!! Tuwang tuwa ako sa dentils kasi yan yung pinaka unang AR term na tumatak sa akin---uhh, just a weird fact. XD

Basta yun, ang saya lang talagang mag point out ng mga AR terms sa mga ganyang buildings. Considered as Eclectic building na ito kasi masyadong halu-halong mga styles na toh eh.. Saya x))

Nang dahil dito gusto ko tuloy mag design ng hotel or basta MODERN NA CLASSICAL ♥ ♥
I thought hanggang bahay lang ang mga gusto kong i-design pero oo, mas pagtutuunan ko yun ng pansin pero may mga sidelines na ganito, tapos may Deconstructivism, tapos mala-Calatrava, Art Nouveau, tapos THEME PARK ♥ !!! Dami kong gustong gawin.hahaha ..basta I wanna be versatile on my profession, para LAHAT ng napag aralan ma-put to use diba? :3



Ang ganda nya ohh, so cool~ ~ ~ So pretty ~ ~ ~ CUTEY PATOOTIE ayon sa bokabularyo ng aking kaibigan XD

---final remarks: Ang beki lang ng post na ito. Bear with me kakagising ko lang, wala sa matinong pag iisip xD

I want a Great Pyrenees when I grow up!!!!

I first saw a HUGE Great Pyrenees in Hana Kimi Taiwan. I want a noble looking dog like that and it's so huge I want it so bad like how I want a huge tiger like in Alladin! XDD Not sure about the tiger because it's a very hard responsibility and I'm more sure about having a dog than a tiger that you are not sure whether its wildness could disappear (like in Alladin where the tiger is very tame).

I wanna cuddle a dog like this :3

This handsome doggy right here is(tilt your head to the left) x3 x3 x3

Oh and I want him to be friends with my CATS, yeah a one Great Pyrenees with a bunch of cats is awesome :))

and this ASDFGHJKL ughh, so cute!!! <3

Advocacy

Sustainable design
Green Architecture
Renewable Energy
PLEDGE FOR CHEAP SOLAR PANELS

I want to help Mother Nature with my profession. Aside from that, I want to try helping humanity, too by creating a better environment for everyone - who likes the squatters area anyway? I want to abolish that and create a better looking home for them to live in. They should help maintain the cleanliness by practicing discipline and there should be someone to check them if they maintain the beauty of their surroundings because they should be thankful, or else they would be living in a trash once again if they don't practice cleaning..right?